Venting This New Year's Eve is a grim reminder of my lack of social capital

[Memento Mori]

This time of the year feels like a Groundhog Day, where I'm experiencing a play-by-play repeat of the same night the year before. It just highlights the stark difference between me and normie's lives; they'll be attending parties or large family gatherings while I'm stuck rotting in my room alone.

 

[Forecast]

Did you have a good drink at least for New Year?

 

[Memento Mori]

Did you have a good drink at least for New Year?

no

 

[Memento Mori]

Same here old friend. Same here…

Thought you went out with friends the other day?

 

[Mementos]

Hey, if you ever want to talk on voice chat (Discord, Instagram, or Telegram), I'm willing to help fill the void of loneliness for sometime.

I notice alot of people on these forums ostensibly take part in the online "communities", but never really make connections with others.

 

[Quintilian]

This time of the year feels like a Groundhog Day, where I'm experiencing a play-by-play repeat of the same night the year before. It just highlights the stark difference between me and normie's lives; they'll be attending parties or large family gatherings while I'm stuck rotting in my room alone.

What is it you miss or have missed out on? The look, the smile; the conversation? When Faustes asked Mephisto what makes him search for things are beyond what words can convey, Mephisto makes its clear " You're thirst is artificial fostered by the arrogance within you". Faust searched for the pulse and core of nature and yet gave himself over to the instruction of the devil. Now it may be asked of you, why do you want what you think you do not get?

 

[Memento Mori]

What is it you miss or have missed out on? The look, the smile; the conversation? When Faustes asked Mephisto what makes him search for things are beyond what words can convey, Mephisto makes its clear " You're thirst is artificial fostered by the arrogance within you". Faust searched for the pulse and core of nature and yet gave himself over to the instruction of the devil. Now it may be asked of you, why do you want what you think you do not get?

It’s not really FOMO or me being jealous and wanting it, I’d prefer to stay at home even if I had the opportunity.

It’s moreso a personal reflection on the difference between me and other’s social lives and the negative trajectory which I experienced in that regard.

 

[Memento Mori]

Hey, if you ever want to talk on voice chat (Discord, Instagram, or Telegram), I'm willing to help fill the void of loneliness for sometime.

I notice alot of people on these forums ostensibly take part in the online "communities", but never really make connections with others.

That is kind of you, I’ll think about it. Thing is virtual connections tend to be more impersonal and passing compared to irl ones (on that note, maybe I should make some friends from forums who are in my local area).

 

[Mementos]

That is kind of you, I’ll think about it. Thing is virtual connections tend to be more impersonal and passing compared to irl ones (on that note, maybe I should make some friends from forums who are in my local area).

What local forums are there to join?

 

[Memento Mori]

What local forums are there to join?

I meant meeting up with people in my local area who are from these kinds of forums, I worded that weirdly lol

 

[Quintilian]

It’s not really FOMO or me being jealous and wanting it, I’d prefer to stay at home even if I had the opportunity.

It’s moreso a personal reflection on the difference between me and other’s social lives and the negative trajectory which I experienced in that regard.

Understandable, what matters now is what you do with your thoughts and behaviors at this moment; the common people make their living on being of little substance.

 

[Mementos]

I meant meeting up with people in my local area who are from these kinds of forums, I worded that weirdly lol

How will you do that?

Understandable, what matters now is what you do with your thoughts and behaviors at this moment; the common people make their living on being of little substance.

Are you a virgin?

 

[Memento Mori]

How will you do that?

Asking users and plan to meetup

 

[wsada]

Hated it when I went online and saw everyone partying n living life while I was just in bed talking with myself

 

[burn]

I meant meeting up with people in my local area who are from these kinds of forums, I worded that weirdly lol

Relatable, if i had some online friends irl id be the happiest nigga alive, impossible to fit in with any normies irl

 

[Mementos]

Asking users and plan to meetup

Let me clarify. How will you know who lives near you?

 

[Memento Mori]

Let me clarify. How will you know who lives near you?

I know users from other forums who have disclosed their location publicly.

 

[vermeulean]

got black out drunk alone on New Year's. slept in my own urine, just fucking hunkering over my toilet bowl. great way to start the year, imo

 

[Mementos]

I know users from other forums who have disclosed their location publicly.

Do you know Komesarj?

 

[Memento Mori]

Do you know Komesarj?

I know who he is but don't know him personally.

 

[Myst]

What is it you miss or have missed out on? The look, the smile; the conversation? When Faustes asked Mephisto what makes him search for things are beyond what words can convey, Mephisto makes its clear " You're thirst is artificial fostered by the arrogance within you". Faust searched for the pulse and core of nature and yet gave himself over to the instruction of the devil. Now it may be asked of you, why do you want what you think you do not get?

I'm just buried in crippling and gut-wrenching loneliness and yearn to feel enough.

 

[Memento Mori]

I'm just buried in crippling and gut-wrenching loneliness and yearn to feel enough.

I hope both our situations improve lol

 

[Myst]

I hope both our situations improve lol

Amen to that, please hmu if you ever need to talk, I'd rather have you cry on my shoulder than have you dead. Everyone else on this forum is included too.

 

[FairnessandEquality]

This time of the year feels like a Groundhog Day, where I'm experiencing a play-by-play repeat of the same night the year before. It just highlights the stark difference between me and normie's lives; they'll be attending parties or large family gatherings while I'm stuck rotting in my room alone.

Brutal

 

[porco-dddio]

Depends how you live it because its not always bad.

For xample, the guy that married my sister did christmas alone for over 20 years, and he went hunting and disregarded any social convention till he married. He wasnt "loser" he had his company, hired 35 people, he was doing alright, he simply was doing what he wanted to do.

So he was living "the life". And after marriage he had to cope with all these normie routine, and a body ageing, and so on. He can still run in the mountain do his stuff, but body agepill hits everyone.

Now I challenge everyone to say all these decades of that guy were "failure". Or my life, call me "failure", try it. It wont work.

How about people who suffer this stuff? Well whats curious to me, is they dont really do anything to change it. Because if you want, theres homeless shelters or theres places where people be glad to have 1 more helping hand to give a happy christmas to the outcasts.

I think it feels threatening for normal people to do this, they would feel mismatched among the hobos and shelters and diners with strangers. Its scary to look at yourself and think "im like them" like these hobos and absolute outcasts, which is why the complainers on the internet will not do it.

Problem is, thats the option available. Or, you can reach the level of someone who disregards norms for his pleasure. Its a sad life what your living, its like be in the middle of 2 worlds, and paralyzed. Perhaps I can teach you some artcelling copes.