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My mom is dying and I have no one else left. Everyone is dying all of sudden. I want to die, I am seeking death yet it runs farther away from me. Just yesterday I tried to jump into an incoming train but I was only flung 20 meters away, ending up with a broken arm.
How is her health
Don't blackpill yourself too much
It's an aggressive cancer. We're talking about weeks to months. She wants to check herself out but I'm being left alone and I don't have a job, no education and I'm neurodivergent and I don't know what to do?
Magnetosphere failing I guess. Some people say it's the COVID-19 jab. I wish I got the cancer instead.
That's horrible to hear. I'm sorry bro.
I might kill myself soon via hanging but I don't know what to do anymore because I'm going to end up homeless, I don't know anyone and I'm uneducated + no savings (never had a job) and on top of that, I'm within the autism spectrum. People close to you (if any) will tell you that only coward people do that but if you were in that position, how would you avoid the inevitable stage of grief and very certainly, a lifetime of loneliness (which will lead to rapid cognitive decline)? I don't talk to anyone besides my mom and yes, I've been always talking to myself since late childhood so at least the language processing part of my brain hasn't atrophied yet.
Best of luck. Life wasn't meant for some of us, hope you find peace whatever you do. I know most here probably don't appreciate your schizo ramblings, but believe it or not, they opened new perspectives for me, and I'm grateful. Hope to keep seeing you here.
My mother passed away from cancer a couple of years ago. Didn't even get the vaxx. It was sad to see her get worse and worse and take her final breath. I have family, but I'm completely on my own in terms of finances and taking care of myself. Have been for a long time now.
At least try to get autismbux before doing something drastic. I see now why you were hoping for the sun to go full giga flare last week. Life will be difficult, but also a lot easier for autists after "The Fall" as the normie control system will no longer be in place. Live to see if luck is on your side and you make it through the catastrophe.
I don't need money for anything really besides maybe food. I've pretty much seen everything when it comes to this whole existence thing. Maybe I just want to relive the loop (and experience the very few good memories (family and pets I recovered from the strert mostly) for the billionth time), but that would also mean I'll keep killing myself over and over again, so... honestly, I am just frozen like a deer stuck in headlights. I guess once I run out of food and the utilities like water supply and electricity go out, my 'lizard" instincts will simply take over and I might end up shoplifting or going to the nearest food bank. If other autistic or normal people in here have gone through bouts of homelessness, maybe I'll figure things out myself but honestly, why even remain 'alive' in the first place? I am just keeping this body alive for nothing essentially. This planet might as well spin for yet another thousands of years until this solar system inevitably hits the wall, so... maybe I SHOULDN'T wait until 2029 because you haven't taken into account the mental and overall health consequences of multi-year loneliness and self-neglect (again, brain atrophy over the next decades).
If you don't use your time here wisely to progress and develop as a soul, you're just going to be put into a more difficult situation when you are next resurrected.
If you end up 'resurrected' into another Homo Sapiens body in the middle of an African underdeveloped hellhole, what's left to learn? And I mean transcending duality of course. The majority of people will never make themselves such questions, and if randomness was true after all, the odds are completely stacked against me and everyone else (that is, being an African or a random poor man). In other words, I don't think that's the case because otherwise... that's certainly a lot of waste on each iteration. Let's call it eternal recurrence since I'm no longer able to think straight, plus I've been dealing with some painful sleep deprivation for a while now.
I just hope I can at least observe this block universe from outside the cube and relive the memories for eternity. I don't think that's the case, but it's better than just linearly experiencing life for the trillionth time. Some people insist on nothingness, and that would be a blessing for sure but we can't deny the recurrent pattern of cycles that often surround our very own senses, and it'd be best to assume that the macrocosm follows the same nature as well. Now, maybe the goal for us living organisms is to finally go through... something comparable to nuclear fusion?
nah, people who die before 40 go straight to Heaven.
Is this real? Explains a lot.
No, lol.
I'll just rope since it's a more cleaner method.
Don't do it.
There's no escape from the terror of recurrence while the Archons are in control of the Moon.
You're not speaking the truth, brother.
Are you low IQ? I'm being sarcastic.
