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preface
i wrote this on pen and paper so translating it to the forum was kinda difficult
btw I don't know if Im gonna give this to her I'm kinda iffy on it since I'm subhuman and she would prob be creeped out by it
and this is just a draft I wrote if I'm serious about sending this to her I'm gonna obviously rewrite it
anyways inb4 niggas start calling me cringe, yall just don't get it man
tags- @n9wiff
@Preston
M
@Manletmachine
@Majestic @ilovewhitepill
@wsada
@Mathiverse
The last year have been followed with pain, suffering and hurt. Only 3 things have been on my mine since I saw you- my family, myself, and you. The days go by fast, I've been getting into different hobbies, including film, philosophy, chess, writing and general looks. You're face still capturing me when I think about it
I can't get you're face out of my mind, it has stuck on me ever since I saw you, like a photographer taking a photo of a beautiful environment, I took a mind photo of your face, the first day it was just a thought, because after I saw you it was just like seeing any good looking women, but the feeling of attachment never got away, I think of you all the time, I never like to submit to the idea of being in love, I see it as a slave mindset, its like being a slave to your mind, but you captivated me, I'm not that much of an interesting person, I have likings in simple things, my new relations and attempts to attach to other women fail miserably, I tried to forget your face, I tried to forget your name, but it ends up with me crushing harder than last time.
Girls in my city are rough, ratchet, not of my liking, somewhat dirty too. I stray away from women of my race, they gave me nothing but humiliation, embarrassment and pain, this was one of many reasons I took a liking in you, you're skin looked as white as snow, you're shadow as black as coffee without milk. The past oneitises I've had was gone after a month or two but you stuck, I surprised myself with how obsessed i was towards you
Things have changed a lot since I first saw you, I look the same but I feel mature, I wish to conversate with you every day, these days i have nothing to look out for in my life, just going through the motions and overthinking about the smallest events.
I still remember our first interaction, from a distance, almost like a beautiful fox in the wild, I spotted you immediately, I made a decision to make a move and go towards you, I don't know what induced me that and why, I barely know what I said, but it was awkward, you just strangely smiled at me and walked away, you probably giggled while walking away but that just increased my love for you, maybe I'm overexaggerating what happened but it all is such a faint memory for me, i was foolish to even come to your level looking back at it
Enter July, 3 months after this awful interaction, I'm still thinking about you, i face mental torture every day thinking about you, the feeling never changed, this time period felt different, it was prime winter and my city was in constant state of rain, these nights made me think about you more, uncertainty floods my mind every day thinking about you, thoughts like "what are you doing, do you think about me, do you have a boyfriend by now" it all came at me at once, the thoughts the memory of seeing you and the wish of being with you, this is how the days passed, wake up to do normal things, enter late at night thinking about you.
This was the time period where the connection just strengthened, in the moment i thought the same when i first saw you, thinking this would go away in a couple of weeks, but it didn't, your face, your body, your figure, your voice, haunted me, i just wished i could be able to confess, i remember this was the time period my dreams became flooded with you, i started having vivid dreams about being with you, one stood out as where me and you were in a Chinese restaurant, i felt a connection in that dream, you were talking about your situation and i was making jokes about stuff i have interest in
The next month August felt quick, but i got to know you more, i wouldn't say i started to stalk you but i started picking up on your mannerisms, there was something new to learn about you every day, I'm an introverted person and your an introverted person, I'm a inside person, more reserved than the average person, a constant overthinker, you like to not talk a lot, show your emotions rarely, more of a person to keep your anger inside, just like me.
a Particular dream I had in August stood out, where I got to go to your house, and spend a day with you, even though this is not possible in reality, it struck me, in the dream there's a specific moment I remember where we were cuddling with each other, it made me feel fulfilled, I've never felt that before in my real life ever, when I woke up from the dream I felt a overwhelming sadness fill me, realising how much that dream meant to me I wrote it down, and I can describe it more in detail if you ask.
You don't know how much emotion I have towards you, your image flashes me every day, your walking, your glances at me, your smile, your giggle, the energy I have towards you isn't changed, I still feel the same energy with you, pure love. It doest take much for a average person to get a better looking woman than you, obviously I'm not average looking so I wouldn't know, but nonetheless you're special to me, you possibly may know I love you already if it wasn't obvious, but I truly do.
signed-[my signature was written here on paper]
thoughts?
i wrote this on pen and paper so translating it to the forum was kinda difficult
btw I don't know if Im gonna give this to her I'm kinda iffy on it since I'm subhuman and she would prob be creeped out by it
and this is just a draft I wrote if I'm serious about sending this to her I'm gonna obviously rewrite it
anyways inb4 niggas start calling me cringe, yall just don't get it man
tags- @n9wiff
@Preston
M
@Manletmachine
@Majestic @ilovewhitepill
@wsada
@Mathiverse The last year have been followed with pain, suffering and hurt. Only 3 things have been on my mine since I saw you- my family, myself, and you. The days go by fast, I've been getting into different hobbies, including film, philosophy, chess, writing and general looks. You're face still capturing me when I think about it
I can't get you're face out of my mind, it has stuck on me ever since I saw you, like a photographer taking a photo of a beautiful environment, I took a mind photo of your face, the first day it was just a thought, because after I saw you it was just like seeing any good looking women, but the feeling of attachment never got away, I think of you all the time, I never like to submit to the idea of being in love, I see it as a slave mindset, its like being a slave to your mind, but you captivated me, I'm not that much of an interesting person, I have likings in simple things, my new relations and attempts to attach to other women fail miserably, I tried to forget your face, I tried to forget your name, but it ends up with me crushing harder than last time.
Girls in my city are rough, ratchet, not of my liking, somewhat dirty too. I stray away from women of my race, they gave me nothing but humiliation, embarrassment and pain, this was one of many reasons I took a liking in you, you're skin looked as white as snow, you're shadow as black as coffee without milk. The past oneitises I've had was gone after a month or two but you stuck, I surprised myself with how obsessed i was towards you
Things have changed a lot since I first saw you, I look the same but I feel mature, I wish to conversate with you every day, these days i have nothing to look out for in my life, just going through the motions and overthinking about the smallest events.
I still remember our first interaction, from a distance, almost like a beautiful fox in the wild, I spotted you immediately, I made a decision to make a move and go towards you, I don't know what induced me that and why, I barely know what I said, but it was awkward, you just strangely smiled at me and walked away, you probably giggled while walking away but that just increased my love for you, maybe I'm overexaggerating what happened but it all is such a faint memory for me, i was foolish to even come to your level looking back at it
Enter July, 3 months after this awful interaction, I'm still thinking about you, i face mental torture every day thinking about you, the feeling never changed, this time period felt different, it was prime winter and my city was in constant state of rain, these nights made me think about you more, uncertainty floods my mind every day thinking about you, thoughts like "what are you doing, do you think about me, do you have a boyfriend by now" it all came at me at once, the thoughts the memory of seeing you and the wish of being with you, this is how the days passed, wake up to do normal things, enter late at night thinking about you.
This was the time period where the connection just strengthened, in the moment i thought the same when i first saw you, thinking this would go away in a couple of weeks, but it didn't, your face, your body, your figure, your voice, haunted me, i just wished i could be able to confess, i remember this was the time period my dreams became flooded with you, i started having vivid dreams about being with you, one stood out as where me and you were in a Chinese restaurant, i felt a connection in that dream, you were talking about your situation and i was making jokes about stuff i have interest in
The next month August felt quick, but i got to know you more, i wouldn't say i started to stalk you but i started picking up on your mannerisms, there was something new to learn about you every day, I'm an introverted person and your an introverted person, I'm a inside person, more reserved than the average person, a constant overthinker, you like to not talk a lot, show your emotions rarely, more of a person to keep your anger inside, just like me.
a Particular dream I had in August stood out, where I got to go to your house, and spend a day with you, even though this is not possible in reality, it struck me, in the dream there's a specific moment I remember where we were cuddling with each other, it made me feel fulfilled, I've never felt that before in my real life ever, when I woke up from the dream I felt a overwhelming sadness fill me, realising how much that dream meant to me I wrote it down, and I can describe it more in detail if you ask.
You don't know how much emotion I have towards you, your image flashes me every day, your walking, your glances at me, your smile, your giggle, the energy I have towards you isn't changed, I still feel the same energy with you, pure love. It doest take much for a average person to get a better looking woman than you, obviously I'm not average looking so I wouldn't know, but nonetheless you're special to me, you possibly may know I love you already if it wasn't obvious, but I truly do.
signed-[my signature was written here on paper]
thoughts?
