Lifestyle Autism gone! Kundalini awakening after interpreting a piece of metaphysics (a gnostic excerpt from the Gospel of Thomas)

[Asgard]

My autism is gone and I can see through my anxiety. Like, WTF!? I have never felt this good before although I feel a bit feverish and I can even feel my damn heartbeats on my chest with weird sounds overlaying my tinnitus (like a cricket sound in the top of my spinal cord). However, I still forget to greet people and my ego isn't dead yet (I still get mad but I don't react to sounds anymore, b-but le science says it's placebo!!!).

However, I can't move my arms freely as they move uncoordinated and I have to actively focus on the motion. No SSRIs, no antipsychotics... Gnostic texts did the job! Screw this dimension, ha-ha-ha!

It's crazy, I don't even react to noise in general. My social anxiety is gone too. I hope this shit is permanent since I can now experience life like VR with no physical suffering.

 

[Asgard]

I recommend everyone to do this shit and try astral projection or some simple meditation (with tinnitus or breath as objects of meditation) afterwards. Your eyelids will move like crazy and your heart beats will probably feel like extremely fast (like you're on the verge of death), like you're a high speed train. This meditation shit after interpreting any metaphysics material (by deluding yourself into thinking you're only controlling a shape in this third-dimensional plane from an unknown dimension) definitely works, and it's not placebo since it's been like 4 days.

 

[Asgard]

The only problem will be intense dreams.

 

[TenzenT]

I recommend everyone to do this shit and try astral projection or some simple meditation (with tinnitus or breath as objects of meditation) afterwards. Your eyelids will move like crazy and your heart beats will probably feel like extremely fast (like you're on the verge of death), like you're a high speed train. This meditation shit after interpreting any metaphysics material (by deluding yourself into thinking you're only controlling a shape in this third-dimensional plane from an unknown dimension) definitely works, and it's not placebo since it's been like 4 days.

i actually felt this waking up, told @Loner about it, the feeling of being in a plane higher than this and be able to create objects, crazy af

 

[Asgard]

i actually felt this waking up, told @Loner about it, the feeling of being in a plane higher than this and be able to create objects, crazy af

I think this is our only life. Universe is a big bad mistake and I hope this garbage shit ceases to exist once I die.

 

[Asgard]

I've lost faith. It's all futile. Fuck everything.

 

[twojei]

My autism is gone and I can see through my anxiety. Like, WTF!? I have never felt this good before although I feel a bit feverish and I can even feel my damn heartbeats on my chest with weird sounds overlaying my tinnitus (like a cricket sound in the top of my spinal cord). However, I still forget to greet people and my ego isn't dead yet (I still get mad but I don't react to sounds anymore, b-but le science says it's placebo!!!).

However, I can't move my arms freely as they move uncoordinated and I have to actively focus on the motion. No SSRIs, no antipsychotics... Gnostic texts did the job! Screw this dimension, ha-ha-ha!

It's crazy, I don't even react to noise in general. My social anxiety is gone too. I hope this shit is permanent since I can now experience life like VR with no physical suffering.

Reminds me of the first psychosis I had. Delusional as shit jfl.

 

[Asgard]

Reminds me of the first psychosis I had. Delusional as shit jfl.

I don't have psychosis and I feel better than ever.

 

[Asgard]

Delusional as shit jfl.

I guess Tibetan Budhists are also delusional under your perspective? Anyway, whatever helps you cope the most. Believing in something more grounded in science and esotericism has helped me better than standard Western psychiatry (which has destroyed my life), and I'll bet most people can agree with the aforementioned fact. Freemasons are delusional, too. Or any esoteric fraternity you can think of. Gnostic folks are very interesting people to interact with in my opinion compared to your standard churchgoer (I might be flawed on that as my church experience has been somewhat limited in the recent past).

The problem is most people. Including my parents. They're very ego centric and toxic, which prompts me to anger and impatience. Most people are unfortunately attached to their emotions.

I'm sure you are in these forums for a reason other than boredom (normal people aren't on online forums, it's just an observation of mine and it might come across arrogant... which I'll excuse from my autism).

 

[Tabula Rasa]

I guess Tibetan Budhists are also delusional under your perspective? Anyway, whatever helps you cope the most. Believing in something more grounded in science and esotericism has helped me better than standard Western psychiatry (which has destroyed my life), and I'll bet most people can agree with the aforementioned fact. Freemasons are delusional, too. Or any esoteric fraternity you can think of. Gnostic folks are very interesting people to interact with in my opinion compared to your standard churchgoer (I might be flawed on that as my church experience has been somewhat limited in the recent past).

The problem is most people. Including my parents. They're very ego centric and toxic, which prompts me to anger and impatience. Most people are unfortunately attached to their emotions.

I'm sure you are in these forums for a reason other than boredom (normal people aren't on online forums, it's just an observation of mine and it might come across arrogant... which I'll excuse from my autism).

A lot of users end up on these forums because of bad life experiences, myself included. There are ugly guys out there living a happy life with a good family and strong social support.

 

[Asgard]

A lot of users end up on these forums because of bad life experiences, myself included. There are ugly guys out there who live a happy life with a good family and strong social support.

All people are delusional in my opinion, and mental illness in general is poorly understood after all. Judging is so easy, and so is for me.