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<blockquote data-quote="Apollo Tenzen" data-source="post: 35006" data-attributes="member: 271">My current life philosophy has a fundamental problem: it doesn&#039;t prevent me from seeking pleasure in all sources, as long as it doesn&#039;t negatively affect my &#039;looksmaxxing&#039; program. It&#039;s heavily focused on Carl Jung&#039;s warrior archetype, primarily because my shadow self has manifested as the warrior for years. Every attempt to cultivate something better—whether through religion (Jesus), <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLNY5T23HKg" target="_blank">physical fitness (gym)</a>, social connection (friends), creative expression (writing fantasy), intellectual pursuits (psychology courses), or even &#039;looksmaxxing&#039; itself—has resulted in destruction and repeated failures. Although calisthenics helped me during puberty, &#039;looksmaxxing&#039; significantly improved my appearance, and psychology gave me valuable self-understanding, it always feels as if the darkness ultimately reclaims me. Essentially, my shadow self manifests by seeking meaning through combat: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cvIvaDT7Eg8" target="_blank">Martial arts</a>, military service, or<a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEiqNnJXnPI" target="_blank"> mercenary work</a>.The shadow self association type:Like Tyler Durden and punisher.Should I solely focus on my dream of writing? Even if my natural &#039;looksmaxxing&#039; potential is limited and unlikely to change much through surgery, should I pursue it?The brutal reality of life seems unconquerable through self-improvement alone, due to imposed limitations and constant comparison with others. This leads me to consider the following <a href="https://looksmax.org/threads/if-youve-never-been-raped-sexually-assaulted-by-a-foid-its-over.878595/#post-13414188" target="_blank">&#039;looks&#039; thread</a>:<ul>
<li data-xf-list-type="ul">Stats: 5&#039;10.5&quot; potential: 5&#039;11.7&quot;</li>
<li data-xf-list-type="ul">Face: Tanned, low MTN potential: White, mid-high MTN with green eyes</li>
<li data-xf-list-type="ul">Body: Lean, muscular potential: Zyzz</li>
</ul>This framework directly opposes my &#039;true self&#039; framework, &#039;the philosophy of creation.&#039; This philosophy values only the created world, meaning all forms of art are valid, and I would continuously explore and create new content. This fills me with meaning and desire; even at 99 years old, there would still be history to explore and create.True self: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYigiwbaX_U&amp;ab_channel=%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%8D%F0%9D%90%83%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%8E%F0%9D%90%8F%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%92" target="_blank">INFP</a>Shadow self: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_IZvfP_sx0&amp;ab_channel=%F0%9D%90%92%F0%9D%90%8E%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%84%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%92%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%82" target="_blank">ISTP</a>Ego: INTJ(Note: these MBTI designations are my personal interpretations of my psyche.)I understand that I need to study more philosophy and psychology. However, these are my two potential life frameworks, and I&#039;m seeking opinions and suggestions. Is it truly &#039;over,&#039; or is focusing on what one genuinely likes is beyond coping? nietzsche vs camus</blockquote>

[QUOTE="Apollo Tenzen, post: 35006, member: 271"] My current life philosophy has a fundamental problem: it doesn't prevent me from seeking pleasure in all sources, as long as it doesn't negatively affect my 'looksmaxxing' program. It's heavily focused on Carl Jung's warrior archetype, primarily because my shadow self has manifested as the warrior for years. Every attempt to cultivate something better—whether through religion (Jesus), [URL='https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLNY5T23HKg']physical fitness (gym)[/URL], social connection (friends), creative expression (writing fantasy), intellectual pursuits (psychology courses), or even 'looksmaxxing' itself—has resulted in destruction and repeated failures. Although calisthenics helped me during puberty, 'looksmaxxing' significantly improved my appearance, and psychology gave me valuable self-understanding, it always feels as if the darkness ultimately reclaims me. Essentially, my shadow self manifests by seeking meaning through combat: [URL='https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cvIvaDT7Eg8']Martial arts[/URL], military service, or[URL='https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eEiqNnJXnPI'] mercenary work[/URL]. The shadow self association type: Like Tyler Durden and punisher. Should I solely focus on my dream of writing? Even if my natural 'looksmaxxing' potential is limited and unlikely to change much through surgery, should I pursue it? The brutal reality of life seems unconquerable through self-improvement alone, due to imposed limitations and constant comparison with others. This leads me to consider the following [URL='https://looksmax.org/threads/if-youve-never-been-raped-sexually-assaulted-by-a-foid-its-over.878595/#post-13414188']'looks' thread[/URL]: [LIST] [*]Stats: 5'10.5" potential: 5'11.7" [*]Face: Tanned, low MTN potential: White, mid-high MTN with green eyes [*]Body: Lean, muscular potential: Zyzz [/LIST] This framework directly opposes my 'true self' framework, 'the philosophy of creation.' This philosophy values only the created world, meaning all forms of art are valid, and I would continuously explore and create new content. This fills me with meaning and desire; even at 99 years old, there would still be history to explore and create. True self: [URL='https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYigiwbaX_U&ab_channel=%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%8D%F0%9D%90%83%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%8E%F0%9D%90%8F%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%92']INFP[/URL] Shadow self: [URL='https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l_IZvfP_sx0&ab_channel=%F0%9D%90%92%F0%9D%90%8E%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%84%F0%9D%90%8C%F0%9D%90%94%F0%9D%90%92%F0%9D%90%88%F0%9D%90%82']ISTP[/URL] Ego: INTJ (Note: these MBTI designations are my personal interpretations of my psyche.) I understand that I need to study more philosophy and psychology. However, these are my two potential life frameworks, and I'm seeking opinions and suggestions. Is it truly 'over,' or is focusing on what one genuinely likes is beyond coping? nietzsche vs camus [/QUOTE]

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