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<blockquote data-quote="newsincerity" data-source="post: 53719" data-attributes="member: 400">I was in my room and saw the made bed. A big ripe raspberry laid on the pillow which really stood out. Then a big spider crawled from under the sheets, caught the raspberry and dragged it back disappearing in the sheets with it. I was surprised and felt a sense of loss.The dream was different than all my other dreams and I could remember it well.I thought there might be meaning, tried to interpret.The next day my mom brought a small box of raspberries and really wanted me to eat them. It was weird coincidence fruit wasn&#039;t in season yet and I haven&#039;t seen it for a while. Color was the same too.I haven&#039;t touched the raspberries because I was being superstitious. Does this mean my mom is the spider? Does the matrix send her?I understood later that the raspberry is pleasure like gooning food sleep (big one for me) and the spider is idk the matrix itself. It uses this lure to get me go back to sleep.Was I waking up? Not really but I was trying. Spamming cold baths and energy training. It&#039;s rare for me to have the will to try. My interpretation was right I think. I lacked the willpower to do anything for past few months and gained weight. I don&#039;t want to stay like this forever. Whatever I tried I feel like it would&#039;ve been futile too.[USER=342]@Asgard[/USER] [USER=28]@Loner[/USER]</blockquote>

[QUOTE="newsincerity, post: 53719, member: 400"] I was in my room and saw the made bed. A big ripe raspberry laid on the pillow which really stood out. Then a big spider crawled from under the sheets, caught the raspberry and dragged it back disappearing in the sheets with it. I was surprised and felt a sense of loss. The dream was different than all my other dreams and I could remember it well. I thought there might be meaning, tried to interpret. The next day my mom brought a small box of raspberries and really wanted me to eat them. It was weird coincidence fruit wasn't in season yet and I haven't seen it for a while. Color was the same too. I haven't touched the raspberries because I was being superstitious. Does this mean my mom is the spider? Does the matrix send her? I understood later that the raspberry is pleasure like gooning food sleep (big one for me) and the spider is idk the matrix itself. It uses this lure to get me go back to sleep. Was I waking up? Not really but I was trying. Spamming cold baths and energy training. It's rare for me to have the will to try. My interpretation was right I think. I lacked the willpower to do anything for past few months and gained weight. I don't want to stay like this forever. Whatever I tried I feel like it would've been futile too. [USER=342]@Asgard[/USER] [USER=28]@Loner[/USER] [/QUOTE]

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