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<blockquote data-quote="EzraIsShy76028" data-source="post: 27684" data-attributes="member: 205">TL;DR At the bottom. Basically being a pushover as a kid, then being a little bit too assertive as an adult? Basically going from a wimp to an asshole? More or less what happened to me. I always struggled with several mental illnesses, which the other kids quite quickly picked up on and made my life hell. All throughout elementary, middle, and high school. And grown-ups also didn&#039;t treat me too well as they found me &quot;difficult to work with&quot; and shit like that. And all that time I didn&#039;t do or say anything back. Not even a simple &quot;right back at ya&quot; after someone insulted me. However, around age 18 (12th grade, last year of high school for me)...coincidentally or not when my mental health hit its absolutely lowest point and I was also quite literally going insane (bipolar psychotic manic state, schizophrenia, schizoaffective, etc, no joke, all diagnosed officially) I basically did a complete 180 in the other direction. I was mean. I was aggressive. I was violent. I was making death threats. I was destroying property. I almost went to jail (went to mental hospital instead due to my history of mental illnesses). And this applied to both people my own age and older people. I no longer listened to even my parents or my teachers. At the time this seemed like a good thing, though in the long run I saw that it wasn&#039;t. I basically lost literally every single person in my life with the exception of my parents, including all my closest lifelong friends, and also including all my other family members besides my parents. They were scared and wanted nothing to do with me ever again. And I had to go back to the mental hospital several times, and I almost had to stay there permanently. And it wasn&#039;t a fun place to be at. I was one of the worst people there but it still wasn&#039;t pleasant to be others like myself, because I myself was insufferable. Now I like to think I more or less balanced it. Though sometimes I tend to sort of slide towards pushover mode or violent psychotic mode, though thankfully not all the way. TL;DR Basically I went from a wimp as a child to an asshole as an adult, though I like to think I&#039;ve balanced things out now. Not letting people walk all over me but at the same time not picking fights (both verbal and physical) for no reason.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="EzraIsShy76028, post: 27684, member: 205"] TL;DR At the bottom. Basically being a pushover as a kid, then being a little bit too assertive as an adult? Basically going from a wimp to an asshole? More or less what happened to me. I always struggled with several mental illnesses, which the other kids quite quickly picked up on and made my life hell. All throughout elementary, middle, and high school. And grown-ups also didn't treat me too well as they found me "difficult to work with" and shit like that. And all that time I didn't do or say anything back. Not even a simple "right back at ya" after someone insulted me. However, around age 18 (12th grade, last year of high school for me)...coincidentally or not when my mental health hit its absolutely lowest point and I was also quite literally going insane (bipolar psychotic manic state, schizophrenia, schizoaffective, etc, no joke, all diagnosed officially) I basically did a complete 180 in the other direction. I was mean. I was aggressive. I was violent. I was making death threats. I was destroying property. I almost went to jail (went to mental hospital instead due to my history of mental illnesses). And this applied to both people my own age and older people. I no longer listened to even my parents or my teachers. At the time this seemed like a good thing, though in the long run I saw that it wasn't. I basically lost literally every single person in my life with the exception of my parents, including all my closest lifelong friends, and also including all my other family members besides my parents. They were scared and wanted nothing to do with me ever again. And I had to go back to the mental hospital several times, and I almost had to stay there permanently. And it wasn't a fun place to be at. I was one of the worst people there but it still wasn't pleasant to be others like myself, because I myself was insufferable. Now I like to think I more or less balanced it. Though sometimes I tend to sort of slide towards pushover mode or violent psychotic mode, though thankfully not all the way. TL;DR Basically I went from a wimp as a child to an asshole as an adult, though I like to think I've balanced things out now. Not letting people walk all over me but at the same time not picking fights (both verbal and physical) for no reason. [/QUOTE]

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