Serious Friendless, confused and alone.

[Myst]

For the past 4-5 months, I've been almost completely and utter alone. My only friend has become much more unavailable recently, with a few messages a week, I've been in a major rut ever since and I hate having to depend on him (as much as I love him) for any sort of enjoyable social interaction. I don't click with anyone but him and it's eating me up inside. I'm sad, confused, scared and alone.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

Feeling lonely is a natural state of being a human, moreso especially in this current age. If you've had it long enough, you just get used to it, at least in my experience.

 

[Myst]

Feeling lonely is a natural state of being a human, moreso especially in this current age. If you've had it long enough, you just get used to it, at least in my experience.

I am used to it as I've always had very few friends ever since I was a little kid but just because I'm used to it, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt or affect me.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

I am used to it as I've always had very few friends ever since I was a little kid but just because I'm used to it, doesn't mean it doesn't hurt or affect me.

It's good that you have at least a friend to depend on. Just because he is unavailable at the moment doesn't make your friendship any less valuable.

 

[Myst]

I sometimes wake up or just flat out can't sleep because my heart feels like it's going to burst out of agony, loneliness, misery and sheer defeat. It's happened to me multiple times and has been ever since I was 12.

 

[Myst]

It's good that you have at least a friend to depend on. Just because he is unavailable at the moment doesn't make your friendship any less valuable.

Of course but he's been so busy that we meet up in real life every 3-4 months, sometimes 5, I mean I barely even get responses from him anymore. Whether I flat out beg him to call me because I'm about to kill myself (which isn't larp, happens somewhat often) or don't ask, he's almost never available.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

Of course but he's been so busy that we meet up in real life every 3-4 months, sometimes 5, I mean I barely even get responses from him anymore. Whether I flat out beg him to call me because I'm about to kill myself (which isn't larp, happens somewhat often) or don't ask, he's almost never available.

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not sure what is the best way to go about it, but I'll tentatively suggest that you could try and be open towards your friend, and express how you really feel and how it is affecting you, or some other way of strengthening your friendship so you don't always have to feel that way.

 

[Myst]

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not sure what is the best way to go about it, but I'll tentatively suggest that you could try and be open towards your friend, and express how you really feel and how it is affecting you, or some other way of strengthening your friendship so you don't always have to feel that way.

I have, we vent to each other sometimes whenever we exchange messages, but it's feels like I'm missing my own brother.