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<blockquote data-quote="EzraIsShy76028" data-source="post: 28138" data-attributes="member: 205">TL;DR At the bottom. Honestly...same. I&#039;m currently 23 years old and my life has been a living hell ever since I first entered kindergarten at age 6; and a huge part of it was due to me being very awkward (though my parents say I was already awkward even before kindergarten, but I don&#039;t remember anything before kindergarten anyway. it also probably helps that I almost never really saw any other kids before kindergarten anyway). Literally since day 1 of kindergarten in like the first 20 minutes or so the other kids took note of how awkward I was and immediately began making fun of me, and my life was all downhill from there. And it was the same all throughout elementary school, middle school, high school, etc. And even being out of school it&#039;s the same, and not just my peers either. People of all ages young and old look at me with disgust once they notice that something is wrong with me. And this awkwardness is not just in person, either. It even carries on to online communities. I thought that since the kids at school were so mean to me that people online would be more understanding, AND BOY HOW I WAS WRONG AS HELL. The kids at school would tell me how much they hated me, sure, but people online would write literal several spaced paragraphs full of swearing and shit about how much they hated me. All this to say that yeah...I relate to you on that front. I don&#039;t really have any advice for you though as I&#039;ve literally been through 11 therapists (currently on the 11th), been through 11 medications (currently on 5), and have been to the mental hospital 9 times total, and literally NONE of it has helped in ANY way. TL;DR I know exactly how you feel, pretty much. I don&#039;t really have any advice but I&#039;m 23 years old and have been awkard since I first entered kindergarten at age 6, and the other kids began bullying me literally on day 1, and my life has been all downhill from there. My awkwardness ruins both real life and online interactions, it&#039;s really that severe.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="EzraIsShy76028, post: 28138, member: 205"] TL;DR At the bottom. Honestly...same. I'm currently 23 years old and my life has been a living hell ever since I first entered kindergarten at age 6; and a huge part of it was due to me being very awkward [I](though my parents say I was already awkward even before kindergarten, but I don't remember anything before kindergarten anyway. it also probably helps that I almost never really saw any other kids before kindergarten anyway)[/I]. Literally since day 1 of kindergarten in like the first 20 minutes or so the other kids took note of how awkward I was and immediately began making fun of me, and my life was all downhill from there. And it was the same all throughout elementary school, middle school, high school, etc. And even being out of school it's the same, and not just my peers either. People of all ages young and old look at me with disgust once they notice that something is wrong with me. And this awkwardness is not just in person, either. It even carries on to online communities. I thought that since the kids at school were so mean to me that people online would be more understanding, [B]AND BOY HOW I WAS WRONG AS HELL[/B]. The kids at school would tell me how much they hated me, sure, but people online would write literal several spaced paragraphs full of swearing and shit about how much they hated me. All this to say that yeah...I relate to you on that front. I don't really have any advice for you though as I've literally been through 11 therapists (currently on the 11th), been through 11 medications (currently on 5), and have been to the mental hospital 9 times total, and literally [B]NONE [/B]of it has helped in [B]ANY [/B]way. TL;DR I know exactly how you feel, pretty much. I don't really have any advice but I'm 23 years old and have been awkard since I first entered kindergarten at age 6, and the other kids began bullying me literally on day 1, and my life has been all downhill from there. My awkwardness ruins both real life and online interactions, it's really [B]that [/B]severe. [/QUOTE]

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