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I FUCK TRIED ALL SORTS OF MEDICATION. I EVEN HAD ONE SURGERY. NONE OF THAT SHIT WORKED. I WAS HIGHLY SUICIDAL, IN FACT, I COMITTED SUICIDE 8 TIMES WITH A ROPE. NONE OF THEM WORKED.
I was an atheist because I saw so much suffering and pain in this world, and I also saw mine. My ego rejected spirituality because it all seemed like bullshit, but deep down withing myself I knew that there can be no fucking way that this universe exists for itself. No fucking way. Even if you say a bunch of particles created all of this, then from where do those particles come from then? But, that's not the point here. I started healing every trauma I had by crying fucking oceans. I cried so much to the point of it hurting, in fact, I was highly repressed, no... I was super repressed emotionally like you can't imagine. I started making new friends, contacting back with my family. What the fuck man? I did not want to accept it, but yeah, it was when I accepted that not everything could be explained by science that everything started to changue.
Damn...
I was an atheist because I saw so much suffering and pain in this world, and I also saw mine. My ego rejected spirituality because it all seemed like bullshit, but deep down withing myself I knew that there can be no fucking way that this universe exists for itself. No fucking way. Even if you say a bunch of particles created all of this, then from where do those particles come from then? But, that's not the point here. I started healing every trauma I had by crying fucking oceans. I cried so much to the point of it hurting, in fact, I was highly repressed, no... I was super repressed emotionally like you can't imagine. I started making new friends, contacting back with my family. What the fuck man? I did not want to accept it, but yeah, it was when I accepted that not everything could be explained by science that everything started to changue.
Damn...
