Personal Experience I lost three years of my life because I was egocentric.

[Chuddha]

Three years ago a simple and easy to deal chronic illness started for me: rhinitis. If I had taken ownership of my life I would have avoided a lot of ugly shit that happened. Basically, I was on the border of becoming schizophrenic because of the chronic sleep deprivation I developed due to not being able to breathe well in my sleep. I thought that my suffering was more important than other people suffering, and so I was desperate for things such as "the meaning of life". Unnecessary. Life was being, and I was not being. Grave mistake.

Please, guys. I know this world can be ruthless sometimes due to the conditions we have been given, but just realize that when the inevitable pain appears you don't have to do something. Just let it be. Let it be, and search for help. It can be people you know, or people here in these kinds of forums.

Just know that you are not alone, for you have yourself.

 

[Chuddha]

The Blackpill contributed to making my pain worse @Plukee :): . I was always comparing myself to other people. Just become I did not want to accept that life is. Things just are. There is no beautiful. There is no ugly. These mental constructs arise from our minds. The craving to attach something to something based on pain avoidance and pleasure chasing.

Yeah guys, the world is this and that. People are this and that. And? You are you, you save yourself. Nobody will save you.

In fact, it's up to you to ask for help.

You are on your own, brother.

That is your strength.

 

[Enju]

Hard to let it be when you’re in 24/7 pain. I did the same shit, i’d compare myself to other people. Not talking about lookism, i’d see people doing everyday shit and i’d get pissed. I always thought, “how come they’re not chronically ill? They’re not thinking about how they’ll manage pain and cope with shitty illness. They’re just living”. The brutal reality is this life is luck. Everything that occurs is by chance, your genetics, your environment, all of it is luck. Some win and some lose. I’m bottom of the barrel. I can hardly cope with inceldom anymore.

 

[somethingtobelievein]

Three years ago a simple and easy to deal chronic illness started for me: rhinitis. If I had taken ownership of my life I would have avoided a lot of ugly shit that happened. Basically, I was on the border of becoming schizophrenic because of the chronic sleep deprivation I developed due to not being able to breathe well in my sleep. I thought that my suffering was more important than other people suffering, and so I was desperate for things such as "the meaning of life". Unnecessary. Life was being, and I was not being. Grave mistake.

Please, guys. I know this world can be ruthless sometimes due to the conditions we have been given, but just realize that when the inevitable pain appears you don't have to do something. Just let it be. Let it be, and search for help. It can be people you know, or people here in these kinds of forums.

Just know that you are not alone, for you have yourself.

Gave a love react because it's awesome that you realized it. Thinking the entire world revolves around you is natural children behavior, and people who remain seeing themselves as the center of the world/main character have refused to grow up. Which is tempting, because in childhood you are protected by your parents so it feels safe, but it's no way to continue on as an adult.

You know how to accept life as it comes. Those three years weren't wasted if they helped you get to that point because you had to get low first.

 

[Chuddha]

Hard to let it be when you’re in 24/7 pain. I did the same shit, i’d compare myself to other people. Not talking about lookism, i’d see people doing everyday shit and i’d get pissed. I always thought, “how come they’re not chronically ill? They’re not thinking about how they’ll manage pain and cope with shitty illness. They’re just living”. The brutal reality is this life is luck. Everything that occurs is by chance, your genetics, your environment, all of it is luck. Some win and some lose. I’m bottom of the barrel. I can hardly cope with inceldom anymore.

Let it all go man. I know what it feels like trust me. I ended up developing temporomandbular joint disorder because of how hard I was clenching my teeth at night. I ended up developing chronic pain in my temporal and masseter muscles. I became more ugly too jfl. Tried taking my life 7 times. It is a slow process after all.

Let it all go. That's just my advice. If pain is inevitable, there is nothing we can do but surrender to it.

If pain torments you 24/7, then surrender 24/7. You are closer to "ego-death" than you realize. I say "ego-death" because the ego doesn't exist.

 

[Enju]

Let it all go man. I know what it feels like trust me. I ended up developing temporomandbular joint disorder because of how hard I was clenching my teeth at night. I ended up developing chronic pain in my temporal and masseter muscles. I became more ugly too jfl. Tried taking my life 7 times. It is a slow process after all.

Let it all go. That's just my advice. If pain is inevitable, there is nothing we can do but surrender to it.

If pain torments you 24/7, then surrender 24/7. You are closer to "ego-death" than you realize. I say "ego-death" because the ego doesn't exist.

I try. Has had me stressed as fuck the past weeks. I’m slowly starting to enjoy what i’m doing again. I’m trying to seek “treatment” but my mother rather spend thousands to treat our fucking pets jfl. I’m too much of a spurg to call somewhere and have no money. Treatments aren’t even guaranteed to work either. What a fucked up disorder. Thankfully it barely altered my looks since my face was already puffy looking due to being half slav. Whenever it’s really inflamed it’s noticeable though. I wont rope because of it.

 

[Chuddha]

I try. Has had me stressed as fuck the past weeks. I’m slowly starting to enjoy what i’m doing again. I’m trying to seek “treatment” but my mother rather spend thousands to treat our fucking pets jfl. I’m too much of a spurg to call somewhere and have no money. Treatments aren’t even guaranteed to work either. What a fucked up disorder. Thankfully it barely altered my looks since my face was already puffy looking due to being half slav. Whenever it’s really inflamed it’s noticeable though. I wont rope because of it.

Beyond pain there is the pleasure of knowing you are above it.

Beyond pleasure there is the pain of knowing you are below it.

Don't stress and let it all happen. The condition already stresses your body. You don't have to do it more to yourself. The illusion is that we have to get ANGRY, MAD, or anything. NO WE DON'T JFL. It is unnecessary. Why? if we never asked to be born, then why do stress so much about this stupid life jfl? This is all a game bro. Literally, this shit is GTA.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

I try. Has had me stressed as fuck the past weeks. I’m slowly starting to enjoy what i’m doing again. I’m trying to seek “treatment” but my mother rather spend thousands to treat our fucking pets jfl. I’m too much of a spurg to call somewhere and have no money. Treatments aren’t even guaranteed to work either. What a fucked up disorder. Thankfully it barely altered my looks since my face was already puffy looking due to being half slav. Whenever it’s really inflamed it’s noticeable though. I wont rope because of it.

I hope you will find treatment for it eventually. You could probably go on painkillers or other methods to mitigate it in the meantime.

 

[Enju]

I hope you will find treatment for it eventually. You could probably go on painkillers or other methods to mitigate it in the meantime.

It’s uncurable. I take pain meds everyday. Not trying to fuck up my stomach or liver with ibuprofen though. Hopefully the treatment will at least take away daily headaches. It also has a chance to make it worse depending on how invasive treatment is