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I don't have too much experience with women. Throughout my life there have been some women who have felt attraction towards me, but I never was interested in them. I have been always an anxious person and I'm trying to heal it. I always attributed my failures interacting with women to the fact that I am an aspie. Yes, it has some influence, but I think my childhood trauma really impacted me more, and I was projecting it on the women I liked, because interestingly, every woman who I have liked do not have a present father figure in their lives while those who really liked me had present father figures. I even got to ignore two who could be considered to be HTB where I live. From a Blackpill perspective it doesn't make any sense right? Why would I ignore those two? There should be some form of physical attraction at least... And I even now, I recognize they really are beautiful, but back in time, I never felt anything.
I think that the projection of my childhood trauma was that I was emotionally neglected growing up, so I was looking for emotionally neglected women, like if as were trying to rescue them when the one in need rescue was me. My last oneitis ended up doing exactly that: she emotionally neglected me. Her father seems to have abandoned her while she was a little girl from what I deduced of what she has said.
I was trying to give them what no one else gave me: attention to my emotional needs.
Neither my mother nor my father ever did, but they are trying to change.
I think that the projection of my childhood trauma was that I was emotionally neglected growing up, so I was looking for emotionally neglected women, like if as were trying to rescue them when the one in need rescue was me. My last oneitis ended up doing exactly that: she emotionally neglected me. Her father seems to have abandoned her while she was a little girl from what I deduced of what she has said.
I was trying to give them what no one else gave me: attention to my emotional needs.
Neither my mother nor my father ever did, but they are trying to change.
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