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I had jaw surgery and there was a period afterwards where going out in public with my non swollen jaw surgery result was novel and gave me a heightened sense of feeling good about my looks due to new lifetime looks peak, thus I felt I noticed when attractive foids in public looked at me more than they used to.
Once I adapted to my new looks level over time, I stopped registering the additional looks I was getting to the same degree and just took it as my new baseline and also took it as irrelevant because looks in public never lead to anything unless you're NT when sober and have an aura and body language conducive to striking up convos with strangers.
In recent times I have a habit of telling myself "I passed my looks peak last month / 3 months ago, I'm past it now"
I then try to extrapolate that to every person who's never seen me before, assuming they also have the same idea in their head that I'm past my peak (oldcel skin) so I'm no longer attractive as I once was, thus not attractive enough to be intriuged by.
I constantly think that an additional 1-3 months of aging has descended me, or when I go 2 bouncer shifts in a row without a foid approaching to compliment me, I start to think I'm past it, until I then get an approach and significant compliment and an 8-10 years younger age guess that allows me to feel I have another months left in my prime but I'm constantly on an expiring deal that needs monthly renewal jfl.
Recently I was giga stressed out over something that I think is almost resolved now thankfully, but while walking home some cute foid with the exact archetype/aura I like was walking towards me from a distance and seemed to be looking my direction the whole time wanting to bait me into eye contact but I couldn't do it in my bad mood where I felt post looks prime because I knew that catching eye contact would make me rage that I wasn't in the mindset to cold approach her and just let her pass.
A few weeks back some cute foid from a distance turned her head to the side and seen me and was looking at me for a considerable amount of time and this was a rare occurrence even in my post surgery era.
This reminded me that whatever way you may feel about your looks in your own mind (eg. believing you went from 100% of your peak to 95% of your peak) when a foid sees you on that day where you feel past it, it will be her first time seeing you and in her mind you may be her exact type that she's looking for physically
The way she feels about your looks on her first time seeing you may be the same way you felt about your looks on your most mogger feeling day
Once I adapted to my new looks level over time, I stopped registering the additional looks I was getting to the same degree and just took it as my new baseline and also took it as irrelevant because looks in public never lead to anything unless you're NT when sober and have an aura and body language conducive to striking up convos with strangers.
In recent times I have a habit of telling myself "I passed my looks peak last month / 3 months ago, I'm past it now"
I then try to extrapolate that to every person who's never seen me before, assuming they also have the same idea in their head that I'm past my peak (oldcel skin) so I'm no longer attractive as I once was, thus not attractive enough to be intriuged by.
I constantly think that an additional 1-3 months of aging has descended me, or when I go 2 bouncer shifts in a row without a foid approaching to compliment me, I start to think I'm past it, until I then get an approach and significant compliment and an 8-10 years younger age guess that allows me to feel I have another months left in my prime but I'm constantly on an expiring deal that needs monthly renewal jfl.
Recently I was giga stressed out over something that I think is almost resolved now thankfully, but while walking home some cute foid with the exact archetype/aura I like was walking towards me from a distance and seemed to be looking my direction the whole time wanting to bait me into eye contact but I couldn't do it in my bad mood where I felt post looks prime because I knew that catching eye contact would make me rage that I wasn't in the mindset to cold approach her and just let her pass.
A few weeks back some cute foid from a distance turned her head to the side and seen me and was looking at me for a considerable amount of time and this was a rare occurrence even in my post surgery era.
This reminded me that whatever way you may feel about your looks in your own mind (eg. believing you went from 100% of your peak to 95% of your peak) when a foid sees you on that day where you feel past it, it will be her first time seeing you and in her mind you may be her exact type that she's looking for physically
The way she feels about your looks on her first time seeing you may be the same way you felt about your looks on your most mogger feeling day
