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<blockquote data-quote="porco-dddio" data-source="post: 85472" data-attributes="member: 656">Imagination is more powerful than porn. When I am sick of porn I go back to imagination and I always have experiences that make me lose contact with reality. Its due to my inclination, I suspect I may be schizophrenic because I have vivid imagination. I visualize things. One example I can do is when I was 10 I have read lovecraft and so I became a believer of his ideas about summoning tentacle god. I was already getting ingredients, and I eyeballed some people to sacrifice, or I was calculating if I kill a cow that is not mine does it counts as sacrifice? I dont know. But my brother told me lovecraft is all fake, and when I realized he was right... I started to question my own rational faculties. Its not even first time I lost control, later in my life I rewrote my entire personality. For months I lied to people about events. And then I realized nothing of what I said was true. Too late because others believed in it. Trapped in my own delusion yet another time. And when I wake up from it, its harder to convince others I lied. What helped me was readin a tonnes of aristotle. De anima, or discussion about manufactured reality, he called &quot;artficial reality&quot;. I dont even know why i got aristotle de anima in my hands at some point, must have been a coincidence. It amost cured me... almost. Because right now I am not immune to my own delusion, I simply come out of it in around 1 or 2 weeks. I dont usually talk about it bcause I dont want to be taken for an insane person. I dont think im insane. And I seen worse around me. Seen vegans captured by lies, living them with total obedience, nobody comes out of their delusion. qanon psyopped people hard. I too get psyopped, but at least I learned how to not make it a permanent problem. Porn, in my world is very bland and boring. Its an automatism, and risks becoming very boring. If I return to my imagination is simply worse because its more powerful than porn.</blockquote>

[QUOTE="porco-dddio, post: 85472, member: 656"] Imagination is more powerful than porn. When I am sick of porn I go back to imagination and I always have experiences that make me lose contact with reality. Its due to my inclination, I suspect I may be schizophrenic because I have vivid imagination. I visualize things. One example I can do is when I was 10 I have read lovecraft and so I became a believer of his ideas about summoning tentacle god. I was already getting ingredients, and I eyeballed some people to sacrifice, or I was calculating if I kill a cow that is not mine does it counts as sacrifice? I dont know. But my brother told me lovecraft is all fake, and when I realized he was right... I started to question my own rational faculties. Its not even first time I lost control, later in my life I rewrote my entire personality. For months I lied to people about events. And then I realized nothing of what I said was true. Too late because others believed in it. Trapped in my own delusion yet another time. And when I wake up from it, its harder to convince others I lied. What helped me was readin a tonnes of aristotle. De anima, or discussion about manufactured reality, he called "artficial reality". I dont even know why i got aristotle de anima in my hands at some point, must have been a coincidence. It amost cured me... almost. Because right now I am not immune to my own delusion, I simply come out of it in around 1 or 2 weeks. I dont usually talk about it bcause I dont want to be taken for an insane person. I dont think im insane. And I seen worse around me. Seen vegans captured by lies, living them with total obedience, nobody comes out of their delusion. qanon psyopped people hard. I too get psyopped, but at least I learned how to not make it a permanent problem. Porn, in my world is very bland and boring. Its an automatism, and risks becoming very boring. If I return to my imagination is simply worse because its more powerful than porn. [/QUOTE]

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