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Perhaps the most pressing concern in my life currently is the weight of loneliness. Every single day of my life, for the last few years, I've spent a considerable amount of time dreaming about circumventing and potentially alleviating this pressure, to which I am sure many of you can relate.
However, the more I think about things, the more I realize that perhaps the irrationality of all this is clouding my judgement to a much more dangerous extent that what I originally presumed.
Human beings need connection--that much I know, but why then do I remain idle? I could at any point leave my house and make the effort to talk to people. I am currently enrolled in university, but I've become all too comfortable with skipping classes, and I act as if nobody there can even perceive me. I could talk to people my age, but I act like they don't exist.
There's something seriously broken about me. Yes, this can be chalked up to mental health, but at a certain point, I need to take accountability for my own inaction and be rid of, once and for all, this defeatist mindset by which I live my life.
I don't particularly think of myself as intelligent, but if I made a serious enough effort at things, I could probably realize my potential isn't trivial. And yet, I don't do a damn thing.
I'm stuck, and nobody can deservedly bear blame but myself.
However, the more I think about things, the more I realize that perhaps the irrationality of all this is clouding my judgement to a much more dangerous extent that what I originally presumed.
Human beings need connection--that much I know, but why then do I remain idle? I could at any point leave my house and make the effort to talk to people. I am currently enrolled in university, but I've become all too comfortable with skipping classes, and I act as if nobody there can even perceive me. I could talk to people my age, but I act like they don't exist.
There's something seriously broken about me. Yes, this can be chalked up to mental health, but at a certain point, I need to take accountability for my own inaction and be rid of, once and for all, this defeatist mindset by which I live my life.
I don't particularly think of myself as intelligent, but if I made a serious enough effort at things, I could probably realize my potential isn't trivial. And yet, I don't do a damn thing.
I'm stuck, and nobody can deservedly bear blame but myself.
