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<blockquote data-quote="slingybingy" data-source="post: 35184" data-attributes="member: 293"><p>I have a idea on whats really amplifying it and thats my loss of vision over the last year and I honostly should of put this in the main post but uh. around the same time I started having some deppresive feelings and stuff i started to lose my vison. I was supposed to get surgery for my condition like 2 months ago but they basiclly told me fuck you and now its not happening for a long time. I definitly think its a big reason but another big problem ive been having is like nobody fucking likes me and I cant shake the feeling of like if i stopped reaching out to people they wouldnt care and wouldnt reach out back. Ive even tried messaging old school friends they basiclly told me to fuck off. I cant ever hold friendships with anyone and ive gotten so down bad with who ive been talking to I think its made it even worse. Im really trying to find people to talk to me and help me through this shit but everyone i talk to just seems to disengenuous. Ive been on reddit and stuff to try and find people ive been activly browsing r/lonely to try and find something but nothing goes anywhere. I met someone on a discord server made for lonely people but I still kinda just dont think they really care about me sometimes and it really seems like they talk to me out of pity. Im trying so hard to find people and stuff but nobody fucking cares and a lot of the experiences I have with people are very negetive. Ive been made fun of for being so fucking addicted to miku stuff and it fucking sucks but its the only thing kinda keeping me happy. This shit is all paired together for a deadly combination of shitty circemstances for my fucked up mental state im sure. While im sure once I do finally get surgery and stuff and can see and do stuff outside of online again ill still be crazily alone and im a social guy so I think it fucks with my mental even more. The vision stuff is like very shitty but im a fuckin neet anyway I dont really give that much of a fuck its the lonelyness shit i cant really deal with.</p></blockquote><p></p>

[QUOTE="slingybingy, post: 35184, member: 293"] I have a idea on whats really amplifying it and thats my loss of vision over the last year and I honostly should of put this in the main post but uh. around the same time I started having some deppresive feelings and stuff i started to lose my vison. I was supposed to get surgery for my condition like 2 months ago but they basiclly told me fuck you and now its not happening for a long time. I definitly think its a big reason but another big problem ive been having is like nobody fucking likes me and I cant shake the feeling of like if i stopped reaching out to people they wouldnt care and wouldnt reach out back. Ive even tried messaging old school friends they basiclly told me to fuck off. I cant ever hold friendships with anyone and ive gotten so down bad with who ive been talking to I think its made it even worse. Im really trying to find people to talk to me and help me through this shit but everyone i talk to just seems to disengenuous. Ive been on reddit and stuff to try and find people ive been activly browsing r/lonely to try and find something but nothing goes anywhere. I met someone on a discord server made for lonely people but I still kinda just dont think they really care about me sometimes and it really seems like they talk to me out of pity. Im trying so hard to find people and stuff but nobody fucking cares and a lot of the experiences I have with people are very negetive. Ive been made fun of for being so fucking addicted to miku stuff and it fucking sucks but its the only thing kinda keeping me happy. This shit is all paired together for a deadly combination of shitty circemstances for my fucked up mental state im sure. While im sure once I do finally get surgery and stuff and can see and do stuff outside of online again ill still be crazily alone and im a social guy so I think it fucks with my mental even more. The vision stuff is like very shitty but im a fuckin neet anyway I dont really give that much of a fuck its the lonelyness shit i cant really deal with. [/QUOTE]

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