"I really can't do it anymore. I no longer have the desire to play competitively, that desire has been defeated by reality. 'Just practise more if you suck'? I can't get back to where I need to be regardless of how much I practise, I took too long of a break.
"I really can't handle this level of play anymore. It's really hard to take. If I don't train to that level I can't catch up. But if I train to that level my body/health can't catch up."
