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<blockquote data-quote="Tomoko4r3al" data-source="post: 59943" data-attributes="member: 506"><p>Every day I wake up and look in the mirror and hate the way I am. I shower and look down at the body I have to call my own and I hate it. I brush my teeth and dress myself and try to make my hair look good but I never feel like it’s good enough. I never feel fully presentable. Finally I give up and drive to school. I walk through the hallways and I feel like every single person is staring at me–judging me. I look down and try to keep to myself, but I can never escape them. I feel their burning gaze on me. I go to my friend and try to say something to spark a conversation, but whatever stupid shit I decide to say never sounds right, and all they do is laugh. The entire day I try to talk to people but I never feel like I can say the right thing. Other people seem to have such free conversations (especially with women), but for me, everything takes an extreme amount of effort. I spend so much time planning exactly what I’m going to say, but I always end up fucking it up and sounding like an autist. I go home and my family tries to talk to me, but all I do is nod my head and respond with passing remarks because my life is too uninteresting for conversation. As soon as I finally make it home, all I do is lie in my bed and wait for another day to pass me by. When does it end? Why am I so retarded?</p></blockquote><p></p>

[QUOTE="Tomoko4r3al, post: 59943, member: 506"] Every day I wake up and look in the mirror and hate the way I am. I shower and look down at the body I have to call my own and I hate it. I brush my teeth and dress myself and try to make my hair look good but I never feel like it’s good enough. I never feel fully presentable. Finally I give up and drive to school. I walk through the hallways and I feel like every single person is staring at me–judging me. I look down and try to keep to myself, but I can never escape them. I feel their burning gaze on me. I go to my friend and try to say something to spark a conversation, but whatever stupid shit I decide to say never sounds right, and all they do is laugh. The entire day I try to talk to people but I never feel like I can say the right thing. Other people seem to have such free conversations (especially with women), but for me, everything takes an extreme amount of effort. I spend so much time planning exactly what I’m going to say, but I always end up fucking it up and sounding like an autist. I go home and my family tries to talk to me, but all I do is nod my head and respond with passing remarks because my life is too uninteresting for conversation. As soon as I finally make it home, all I do is lie in my bed and wait for another day to pass me by. When does it end? Why am I so retarded? [/QUOTE]

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