Discussion Your biological programming wants you to kill yourself.

[—2J—]

There is a logical explanation. You hate yourself because in you there are biological filters. When you see yourself in the mirror you feel repulsive because your own system rejects you, it is that irrational. Why the thing supposed to keep me alive (body) makes me wanna kill myself I ask of me... Just as it is irrational to desire the same as Chad, but without having the opportunities he has.

So, if it is irrational to desire the same as other people, why suffer for not having it? The curious part here is that we are not the ones who suffer at will. It is our ego or biological body that makes us suffer irrationally. It's stupid, it creates our needs in the first place, and then punishes us for not being able to satisfy them. It's all a trap of our biology. Don't fall into that pit of biological suffering, it is stupid. So if we don't have a choice, then why to do something?

I don't think anyone says, “Oops, how horrible I am, I'm going to suffer.” Rather, it is certain states of cerebral neurochemistry activated by our brain upon receiving certain information (perception of face interpreted as ugliness), which activate depression and suffering, which in the end, make no sense and prolong the pain. It makes no sense, because reality is already as it is, suffering and hating oneself does not change it and it is a waste of energy resources at the cerebral level to enter into those states. I am only clarifying this so that we do not fall into the trap of the ego.

I am not saying that it is wrong not to accept oneself. It is perfectly valid to hate oneself, the point here is that hating oneself all of one's life may not be the most optimal way to live it and leads to huge amounts of suffering and pain for the one who suffers from it. I believe that the most optimal response to the dilemma of life is the redirection of hatred towards activities that allow us to improve our life and to be able to diminish our self-hatred. Directing hatred outwards instead of inwards is the most optimal way for people that hate themselves a lot due to past trauma.

 

[ekil]

Directing hatred outwards instead of inwards is the most optimal way for people that hate themselves a lot due to past trauma.

as long as it goes to an appropriate target

emotions are energy and energy causes change. hatred is meant to cause external change, if u keep it in the change manifests as damage

for this reason most people release their hatred inappropriately

a parent may become hurt by another person, but being too meek to stand up for themself, they release their hatred to their child, a weaker target

hatred for motivation for life improvement is also inappropriate, altho better than some other options. its usually unnecessarily risky, even if it doesnt seem conventionally a risk

sexual energy is more fluid and better for this task, the source of hatred should be dealt with rather than emptying the hatred out of u while it continues to flow in

another note: i used to channel hatred for masturbation but that 1. didnt fix the root problem of hatred and 2. wasted sexual energy so i was unproductive