I don’t disagree with the historical weight you're laying out. Europe feeling like a dying museum is a massive Manifested Reality the fallout of the Brother War, the grinder of communism, and the Psychic Insomnia of modernity. It’s hard to find a 'center' when you’re standing in a graveyard of bygone history.
You can live in contradiction with reality, but you cannot do so without consequence. Even if your predetermined spawning or your health feels like a cage, your Judgment is still only as good as your Information. If you only feed your brain Blackpill data about dying cultures and bus hags, your internal war is never going to end. You head space is your own the final line in the sand they can't cross and you should let them in like you do.
Hitler (the painter I'm assuming your talking about.) didn't have a central will that benefited the whole; he had a Demonic drive that forced a brother war. He bent Europe until it snapped. He was no Napoleon. Hitler made all of Europe weak he did too much.
Stay strong, man. I’m not just talking to hear myself speak; I’m telling you this because I’d rather see you find some peace in that psychic insomnia than watch you spin your wheels until you break.