Venting Bad childhood truly destroys you, be grateful if yours was good

[sixdegrees]

I've been reading up on other mentally unstable users on looksmax, neets and some other forums and noticed that a lot of them come from broken and/or abusive households. This falls in line for me too, as I was abused by both my parents (especially my father) for all of my childhood. One of my earliest memories of childhood is being scolded and beaten over something that my dad was at fault for. All I ever received was disdain, never got any semblance of love from them, which made me kind of robotic in my mannerisms, as I genuinely dont know how to respond to love from another person.

They never let me play any sports, or get any hobbies. I remember asking my dad to get me a piano keyboard once and I got scolded just for asking, this made me never get into any hobbies. Nowadays he's whining about me being on my laptop all day and not having any hobbies when he himself is the reason why I never got into instruments, or really anything in my life.

Many people think that living in a single mother household is worst that can happen when in reality the worst outcome is living with a narcissist father with anger issues who truly despises his family for no reason. This also makes me want to never get married or have any children as I fear me turning into a shitty two-faced human like him, who treats his family like shit and puts on a facade of a good person to everyone else.

 

[Sovereign]

I've been reading up on other mentally unstable users on looksmax, neets and some other forums and noticed that a lot of them come from broken and/or abusive households. This falls in line for me too, as I was abused by both my parents (especially my father) for all of my childhood. One of my earliest memories of childhood is being scolded and beaten over something that my dad was at fault for. All I ever received was disdain, never got any semblance of love from them, which made me kind of robotic in my mannerisms, as I genuinely dont know how to respond to love from another person.

They never let me play any sports, or get any hobbies. I remember asking my dad to get me a piano keyboard once and I got scolded just for asking, this made me never get into any hobbies. Nowadays he's whining about me being on my laptop all day and not having any hobbies when he himself is the reason why I never got into instruments, or really anything in my life.

Many people think that living in a single mother household is worst that can happen when in reality the worst outcome is living with a narcissist father with anger issues who truly despises his family for no reason. This also makes me want to never get married or have any children as I fear me turning into a shitty two-faced human like him, who treats his family like shit and puts on a facade of a good person to everyone else.

If I could, I'd pin this for its merit. What you wrote has more fruit than anything I have written thus far. That is why we are all here, because we have suffered one way or another, family is but a passing shadow they are but a breath away from death and yet they persist in hindering and causing harm to their children, yet they are but dumb clumps of clay.

 

[miscreation]

Brought us into this world only to suffer, they set us up for mental illness and a bleak and miserable life and you're still expected to love them unconditionally.

 

[miscreation]

There should be a screening process for people who want to have children tbh, retards, the deranged, impoverished and ugly should be barred. Eugenics is for the greater good.

 

[wsada]

My life was pretty good up until I was 12 I had a good childhood but not teenhood

 

[sixdegrees]

Brought us into this world only to suffer, they set us up for mental illness and a bleak and miserable life and you're still expected to love them unconditionally.

I forgot to bring that up in my post but I think the same too, my dad gambled all his savings away when he was single, and then again after I was born, such an irresponsible bum it makes me angry at how we could have had a decent house in the suburbs but have to live in a shitty part of town because of his reckless spending. Hes such a bad father and yet acts like hes some ideal parent just because he puts food on the table and buys me clothes once or twice an year

 

[Green Fruits]

I've been reading up on other mentally unstable users on looksmax, neets and some other forums and noticed that a lot of them come from broken and/or abusive households. This falls in line for me too, as I was abused by both my parents (especially my father) for all of my childhood. One of my earliest memories of childhood is being scolded and beaten over something that my dad was at fault for. All I ever received was disdain, never got any semblance of love from them, which made me kind of robotic in my mannerisms, as I genuinely dont know how to respond to love from another person.

They never let me play any sports, or get any hobbies. I remember asking my dad to get me a piano keyboard once and I got scolded just for asking, this made me never get into any hobbies. Nowadays he's whining about me being on my laptop all day and not having any hobbies when he himself is the reason why I never got into instruments, or really anything in my life.

Many people think that living in a single mother household is worst that can happen when in reality the worst outcome is living with a narcissist father with anger issues who truly despises his family for no reason. This also makes me want to never get married or have any children as I fear me turning into a shitty two-faced human like him, who treats his family like shit and puts on a facade of a good person to everyone else.

I could write a book about this, bad upbringing = bad life