Imagine going into someone's house that is feeding you and letting you live there for free and you instantly don't listen to them, eating their last wedding cake piece, killing a pet and shitting all over the toilet seat.
Well to each his own but even the rabbis will tell you God stopped talking to them long ago, kabbalah is just what a long line of black magic rabbis who go against God rules and thought it was a good idea.
I can't clearly help anyone here. They never read the source.