Personal Experience emptiness

[ekil]

recently ive reached a high point in my life where i dont feel so much fear and hatred

i cultivate happiness deliberately and effectively

i still feel a deep emptiness in me, and it doesnt feel bad, but i know that i could feel a lot more

a lot of deep thinking, but also a lot of non-thinking

im very withdrawn in life

 

[ekil]

i did not leave my room today nor speak (not including type) a word

 

[Tabula Rasa]

What kind of emptiness is this?

 

[ekil]

What kind of emptiness is this?

a lack of desire. a lack of suffering, too. but its as if my unfulfilled desires stopped being desires so that they could not feel unfulfilled. yet they dont feel fulfilled either, they feel empty

 

[Tabula Rasa]

a lack of desire. a lack of suffering, too. but its as if my unfulfilled desires stopped being desires so that they could not feel unfulfilled. yet they dont feel fulfilled either, they feel empty

The Buddhist view on this is that craving desires lead to suffering. Maybe they are still lingering around somewhat even if you stopped desiring them.

 

[ekil]

The Buddhist view on this is that craving desires lead to suffering. Maybe they are still lingering around somewhat even if you stopped desiring them.

i have desire but for what i largely know not

i think they are lingering, sometimes i still picture myself with a wife or with IRL friends but then i tell myself i dont want those things

the only things i tell myself i want is knowledge, intelligence, and power