I'm very sorry for your loss
I actually attended my grandmother's funeral today, but that isn't nearly as bad as your loss though... that sounds just tragic...
I think everyone reacts and digests this kind of stuff very differently. Mourning doesn't always look the way it does in movies...
But that also means that there isnt really a "right" way to cope, if there even is a way to cope.
They say time heals all wounds and that may be true, but those kinds of wounds never heal without scars i think...
So yeah, you have my deepest condolences
