I just joined and am therefore very much out of the loop here...
But I am just about now watching your response to the AMA vid from 3 months ago and wanted to say, i feel you!
Quite a lot of people I know and love dearly also suffer from mental illnesses like schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, psychosis, etc...
This sort of thing is way more common than most realize and these illnesses are just plain awful.
I don't suffer from them myself, but I know the struggle.
So I just wanted to say that it's honestly amazing to see you keeping to move forward man.
Best wishes