Depression I need to talk to someone, ive been starting to develop a imaginary friend

[Majestic]

yeah i feel like there will be a war on .org between beliefs

looks/bp vs NT+low inhib/half bp half rp

I dont even mind seeing myself being ugly, what destroys my heart is seeing others being ugly, or when i see a guy with some birth disorder that makes him look subltn.

 

[Alurmo]

I dont even mind seeing myself being ugly, what destroys my heart is seeing others being ugly, or when i see a guy with some birth disorder that makes him look subltn.

yeah and then they try to compensate with gym,etc.
meanwhile they are clueless abt what makes them unapproachable(looks)

 

[Majestic]

i love the whitepill but sometimes it seems flawed

Its like if everyone ignores him, its like a dog in an animal shelter that was born with a birth defect (i meant birth defect in my last reply not disorder btw), but im the only one who sees the world from his eyes, as i have swallowed the bp.

 

[Alurmo]

Its like if everyone ignores him, its like a dog in an animal shelter that was born with a birth defect (i meant birth defect in my last reply not disorder btw), but im the only one who sees the world from his eyes, as i have swallowed the bp.

its sad sometimes
and that was me at a time
I get ignored by people without seeing what was truly wrong with me

 

[Alurmo]

honestly sometimes im genuinely convinced NT and low inhib is all u need but then I see a subhuman get ignored after cold approaching then I get slapped back to reality

 

[Majestic]

yeah and then they try to compensate with gym,etc.
meanwhile they are clueless abt what makes them unapproachable(looks)

Its just like seeing an old man watching a group of kids my age vaping, shouting acting like assholes, nike tech clothes you get the idea.

I beleive that i have the power to see the world through the eyes of different people. Theres a specific word for this i cant remember what its called man.

Its not just that for example @Tabula Rasa is an admin, its beyond. I look at his feelings, his past, how his thought structure works at the moment, and the thoughts itself. I imagine myself as him.

 

[Majestic]

its sad sometimes
and that was me at a time
I get ignored by people without seeing what was truly wrong with me

I try to not be that person man

 

[Alurmo]

Its just like seeing an old man watching a group of kids my age vaping, shouting acting like assholes, nike tech clothes you get the idea.

I beleive that i have the power to see the world through the eyes of different people. Theres a specific word for this i cant remember what its called man.

Its not just that for example @Tabula Rasa is an admin, its beyond. I look at his feelings, his past, how his thought structure works at the moment, and the thoughts itself. I imagine myself as him.

that must be cool tbh
i always struggled to connect with kids my age bc of being a only child and being around adults for the better part of my childhood

 

[Alurmo]

I try to not be that person man

yeah i still get that when i go outside tbh
but its not as bad

 

[Majestic]

that must be cool tbh
i always struggled to connect with kids my age bc of being a only child and being around adults for the better part of my childhood

Im about to say something extremely complicated, you maybe wont understand but its worth the try

 

[Majestic]

yeah i still get that when i go outside tbh
but its not as bad

Im about to say something extremely complicated, you maybe wont understand but its worth the try

The pain, suffering, lust, anger, violence, overall how disgusting our world we live in is you get the idea, leaves a certain feeling inside me.
Why must these people including me act this way?
How i mentioned looking through the eyes and heart of someone before, in this case i look through the eyes and heart of someone above us. Like just imagine someone painting on a canvas, with the paint on the canvas being the people and the eyes and heart of the painter seeing the painting. Through these eyes and heart what would the painter feel/see? Honestly, would he even be happy on what he made? Would he even be proud? Would the painting give him any value at all, will he throw it away and start again?

The thing that i fear is, that he wouldnt. And the more and more that i think about our world, the more this theory becomes clearer. He wouldnt be happy, he wouldnt be proud.

Not only that, he may even be angry, even furious filled with hatred against the paint on the canvas depending on the person who the painter is.

I cant continue further sorry alurmo, i dont know how to describe it.

 

[Alurmo]

The pain, suffering, lust, anger, violence, overall how disgusting our world we live in is you get the idea, leaves a certain feeling inside me.
Why must these people including me act this way?
How i mentioned looking through the eyes and heart of someone before, in this case i look through the eyes and heart of someone above us. Like just imagine someone painting on a canvas, with the paint on the canvas being the people and the eyes and heart of the painter seeing the painting. Through these eyes and heart what would the painter feel/see? Honestly, would he even be happy on what he made? Would he even be proud? Would the painting give him any value at all, will he throw it away and start again?

The thing that i fear is, that he wouldnt. And the more and more that i think about our world, the more this theory becomes clearer. He wouldnt be happy, he wouldnt be proud.

Not only that, he may even be angry, even furious filled with hatred against the paint on the canvas depending on the person who the painter is.

I cant continue further sorry alurmo, i dont know how to describe it.

this shit real asf man
i never got this thought before
its a unique way to look at the world
its very cool how u do it man, honestly Idk if I'm high IQ enough for this but its bookmarked maybe when I get the energy I would look deeper into this

 

[Majestic]

this shit real asf man
i never got this thought before
its a unique way to look at the world
its very cool how u do it man, honestly Idk if I'm high IQ enough for this but its bookmarked maybe when I get the energy I would look deeper into this

this is exactly what i mean by leave a positive influence on people, hope you spread this thought even further so this world can become a better place.

 

[Alurmo]

this is exactly what i mean by leave a positive influence on people, hope you spread this thought even further so this world can become a better place.

yeah i dont see a postive world unfortunately, there will always be negativity,m hate ,etc.
its gonna truly take a lot of effort to remove the natural human urge to be bigger, better, stronger than the next man