Spirituality I would betray man before I betray the world

[Quintilian]

I desire for the plains, for freedom, I don't want to live by the dictates of other people. I don't know how to live, why I exist and what I'm here to do, knowing this has made me realize that I've been ignorant for so long and am likely to remain so; if I died today I know I wouldn't be missed or understood, I'm alone and yet I feel conceited in my justification that somehow I'm justified in it or that I'm better then others- I don't want to be that way anymore, but in all of it there is a fear ever present that if never understood what else will become of me?

I feel deeply in my heart, that my time has come to leave this house, to leave everything that I once knew behind. I want the grassy plains, the substance of life is what I want, not things or people.

 

[Arnold Schwarzwald]

I'd blot out the sun, poison the oceans, and salt the earth for my loved ones. Bit of a paradox though if you think about it.