Venting Im feeling lost after consuming the blackpill for more than 2 year

[S4raw]

After rotting my life away for 2.5 years because of depression from the bp is so heartbreaking for me. When i first found out about the bp i was so hopeful for my future thinking i was gonna ascend but reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years. As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

 

[S4raw]

hello tabula u remember me

 

[Tabula Rasa]

hello tabula u remember me

Yeah you joined early then dipped lol

 

[Tabula Rasa]

After rotting my life away for 2.5 years because of depression from the bp is so heartbreaking for me. When i first found out about the bp i was so hopeful for my future thinking i was gonna ascend but reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years. As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

Consuming Blackpill content can make your mental state worse especially if you're in a bad situation. Imo there's other things you can put your mind to rather than hyperfocusing on external circumstances that you don't have control over.

 

[VioletBlast]

 

[S4raw]

Yeah you joined early then dipp

Consuming Blackpill content can make your mental state worse especially if you're in a bad situation. Imo there's other things you can put your mind to rather than hyperfocusing on external circumstances that you don't have control over

i have stopped consuming it long before but im still rotting man. I cant even fraud my hair thickness no more and my face has aged like 10 years more and ive started to look alot older. I have been feeling so lost after all this bs

 

[VioletBlast]

im the new Ritalincel and will start doing stonetoss

 

[Tabula Rasa]

i have stopped consuming it long before but im still rotting man. I cant even fraud my hair thickness no more and my face has aged like 10 years more and ive started to look alot older. I have been feeling so lost after all this bs

Yeah you should develop habits that are healthy and beneficial for yourself. Create positive feedback loops, basically. Easier said than done though.

 

[S4raw]

Yeah you should develop habits that are healthy and beneficial for yourself. Create positive feedback loops, basically. Easier said than done though.

imma rot here now. it was fate that i ended up being one of the first members to join here

 

[LOOKISM-LOGIC]

Change what you can……

Thats it and stop enjoying your own misery, try to distance yourself from negativity.

Although life tends to humble people in different ways and degrees, that does not mean you have to suffer more after a humbling by bathing in melancholy.

 

[ijustwannaasendlol]

After rotting my life away for 2.5 years because of depression from the bp is so heartbreaking for me. When i first found out about the bp i was so hopeful for my future thinking i was gonna ascend but reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years. As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

Feel you man

 

[Apollo]

After rotting my life away for 2.5 years because of depression from the bp is so heartbreaking for me. When i first found out about the bp i was so hopeful for my future thinking i was gonna ascend but reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years. As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

I remember being 5'5 at 16 then turned into 5.10.5 in a year, terrible feeling, everyone look down at you, they just smile and stare, if i were you would go to the French Foreign Legion or wagiemaxx into LL surgery

 

[Sovereign]

After rotting my life away for 2.5 years because of depression from the bp is so heartbreaking for me. When i first found out about the bp i was so hopeful for my future thinking i was gonna ascend but reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years. As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

The conclusion of the black pill is death, either you cope or you rope is the saying. Now, if accepts these premises, socially the quote for this would be "man is a wolf to another man", even if you accept the conclusion of the black pill that you are a genetic dead end then even as you exist you will have to also accept that your life is a struggle whether against others or yourself.

You rotted away because of that sorrow, this is an inevitable result of these beliefs, you have nothing nor anyone neither anything, no respect of God, no respect of others, or respect of self. I get what you feel, you feel dead, you feel non-existent. The answer will come from taking a wider view of the circumstance and a willingness to understand. You will have to make that choice it will be beyond me, the users here and even yourself, but it is well worth the challenge considering you'll be free.

I wish you well.

 

[Foidkiller]

The conclusion of the black pill is death, either you cope or you rope is the saying. Now, if accepts these premises, socially the quote for this would be "man is a wolf to another man", even if you accept the conclusion of the black pill that you are a genetic dead end then even as you exist you will have to also accept that your life is a struggle whether against others or yourself.

I don't see the problem. Struggle is great, I enjoy it. Why rope?

 

[OgreLTN]

I don't see the problem. Struggle is great, I enjoy it. Why rope?

Fucking comedian bro.

 

[OgreLTN]

Nigga hop on finasteride and minoxidil, really cheap, and you don't want to add being bald to your list of problems

 

[spooky_Heejin]

As a 5'5 balding 17 year old life has never been more brutal for me. Ive truly lost hope idk what to do and i am lost.

Absolutely brutal to be balding at 17, sorry to hear that.

reality hit me like a truck and i rotted my life away doing nth for these last two years

Me too. I've mostly gotten over the bp but it still makes me depressed every few days or so. I just distract myself with as many copes as possible so I don't think about it. Anytime I'm sad, build legos. I see a couple my age kissing in public? I instantly look away and pull out my action figure in my pocket and play with him. Anything to distract yourself from reality is extremely crucial.

 

[Foidkiller]

I've mostly gotten over the bp but it still makes me depressed every few days or so. I just distract myself with as many copes as possible so I don't think about it.

Struggling to cope with basic reality means you're either too young (doesn't seem like you are) or aren't so bright upstairs. There are so many amazing things to just do on a daily basis as a neet. If you aren't happy to simply breathe air also, something's deeply wrong and I get that because our society is sick but that doesn't mean you have to be adjusted to it.

 

[spooky_Heejin]

Struggling to cope with basic reality means you're either too young (doesn't seem like you are) or aren't so bright upstairs.

@Queen Belle Do you see why I flip out so much? He passively aggressively just called me retarded. I'll be patient but jesus.

There are so many amazing things to just do on a daily basis as a neet. If you aren't happy to simply breathe air also

I walk dogs for 3 or 4 hours a day as a job, I get plenty of fresh air and still feel are depressed every day. Just because a cope works for you doesn't mean it works for everyone.

 

[Xuelian Baijie]

aren't so bright upstairs.

You arent as smart as you think you are. Dont jump to such narrow speculative conclusions if they are offensive. At least with this user.

 

[Foidkiller]

You arent as smart as you think you are. Dont jump to such narrow speculative conclusions if they are offensive. At least with this user.

People generally talk badly about things that they used to do in the past, I meant it 'you' as in 'one', as a general thing but if you really dig into it, I was calling my younger self stupid

 

[newsincerity]