Venting im never truly gonna be able to love myself

[Alurmo]

after most of my life experiences and negative reinforcements
it feels practically impossible to still want to be in the same body

although I can maybe ascend or ltr a stacy or whatever oneday
I will still feel unsatisfied and be a abused dog

 

[Tabula Rasa]

I’ve stopped interacting with other ppl so I don’t really care now tbh

 

[Deleted member 103]

after most of my life experiences and negative reinforcements
it feels practically impossible to still want to be in the same body

although I can maybe ascend or ltr a stacy or whatever oneday
I will still feel unsatisfied and be a abused dog

It’s entirely possible to gain your love again for yourself and everyone but it takes some time. My advice for you is to stay off the blackpill forums like .org for example and maybe delete your account on there, go for a morning walk and see how great life is at times, put in the effort and hardwork (and before you say it I doubt your genetics are bad you sound like a mentalcel by mentioning life experiences and negative reinforcement). It will all come together if you want to take the first steps.


And I know all this is eaiser said that done but you will hopefully maybe come to that point soon

 

[Myst]

after most of my life experiences and negative reinforcements
it feels practically impossible to still want to be in the same body

although I can maybe ascend or ltr a stacy or whatever oneday
I will still feel unsatisfied and be a abused dog

I often feel the exact same way, I remember around my last semester of 12th grade, my giga NT mtn classmate was making my oneitis laugh over and over till her stomach hurt. And even though I was htn at the time, I thought about how non-NT and awkward I was (and still am) and how I could never make her genuinely laugh and giggle like that. Even though it isn't over, it constantly feels like it is for us abuseddogcels.