This is what it feels like to have to go back to a job you can no longer stand. The trauma of being a wage slave overtakes your entire nervous system. Your body begins to reject its fate, yet you realize you are too much of a coward to just quit, amplifying the anguish.
I'll go homeless after I'm done with wageslaving (on a minimum wage job for the disabled because I can't get hired on normal jobs). Our deaths will only accelerate the end of this universe cycle after stripping away time perception, so I guess that's the proper way to go.