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I had this irrational fear of the youth, but I was young like them in some cases younger.
The youth has some power and they are intimidating when they are in a group. I suffered a level of intimidation, and I was always fascinated and envious of what they had. Mixed with this envy I also had feelings of shame and impotence, because the groups of normie communists for a while are surrounded by women. For a while at least they are with women, when they get older women dissipate and only old bitter men remain in the commy collectves.
I mean, communism in our day and age stopped supporting workers and now is almost only focused on students. So if you are in the age range where youre either in HS or university, you will see youth dynamics where communists appropriate of senses of rebellion and transgression, they do drugs, they live "free" or at least they portray the aesthetic that supports the myth.
A young person, if hes stupid sheepish, gullible, faithful and ignorant, he can obtain access to things that were precluded from me: access to rebellion, transgression, social status, women, group belonging, sense of direction, way to explain the world, "reality of life".
Mix these feels with my inceldom, and shame walked beside me.
But years passed, and this changed. Its not only maturity, I am sure its not just that, there are things that changed in society. Now, when i face them, I can pierce them. I can win. I have the confidence, the wits, the things I didnt have at the time. It took me long decades to acquire on my own the things given for free to normies who accept ideology.
I learned with time, that accepting ideology was a cowardly move or also religion. I think its the path of the coward normie who is insecure and he wants to be led to the slaughterhouse. I was an insecure teen as well, but I didnt bend to ideology. Im not gona lie saying my life was easy and heroic, it was shit and I lost so much. In the end, I made it. Now I got the personal power to turn the table, and none of these "pro palestine" scumbags has any power over me. They look like nothing to me, they are all nothing.
The youth has some power and they are intimidating when they are in a group. I suffered a level of intimidation, and I was always fascinated and envious of what they had. Mixed with this envy I also had feelings of shame and impotence, because the groups of normie communists for a while are surrounded by women. For a while at least they are with women, when they get older women dissipate and only old bitter men remain in the commy collectves.
I mean, communism in our day and age stopped supporting workers and now is almost only focused on students. So if you are in the age range where youre either in HS or university, you will see youth dynamics where communists appropriate of senses of rebellion and transgression, they do drugs, they live "free" or at least they portray the aesthetic that supports the myth.
A young person, if hes stupid sheepish, gullible, faithful and ignorant, he can obtain access to things that were precluded from me: access to rebellion, transgression, social status, women, group belonging, sense of direction, way to explain the world, "reality of life".
Mix these feels with my inceldom, and shame walked beside me.
But years passed, and this changed. Its not only maturity, I am sure its not just that, there are things that changed in society. Now, when i face them, I can pierce them. I can win. I have the confidence, the wits, the things I didnt have at the time. It took me long decades to acquire on my own the things given for free to normies who accept ideology.
I learned with time, that accepting ideology was a cowardly move or also religion. I think its the path of the coward normie who is insecure and he wants to be led to the slaughterhouse. I was an insecure teen as well, but I didnt bend to ideology. Im not gona lie saying my life was easy and heroic, it was shit and I lost so much. In the end, I made it. Now I got the personal power to turn the table, and none of these "pro palestine" scumbags has any power over me. They look like nothing to me, they are all nothing.
