My end has come

[Naofumi]

After all this struggle in life I didn't even get a degree I'm a failure, all the graduation ceremonies I will miss out on there is just nothing that can be done. I am doomed to tartarus. I can't do anything I feel ashamed.

To top it off I've given up freelancing as well as any other stream of income online. I have nothing, my skills are trash I threw away everything for no reason.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

What are you expecting for yourself in the next few years?

 

[Naofumi]

What are you expecting for yourself in the next few years?

I am expecting that if I manage to fixup my living space and my mental stabilizes I'll probably head back to a local college within a few months of that and reapply to some faculty at uni but even if I graduate I'll be four years late so I'll delay my grad ceremony as long as possible to avoid the ridicule of old friends who may be in late masters or phd programs. Even still can't decide which faculty I want as I no longer want to program anymore but I still respect cs my old faculty for the power of data structures. I failed so many math courses I can't see myself taking on a math major and arts degrees are meme tier so yeah this is pure speculation but I honestly have no idea what major I would even choose if I even got back into a faculty. After that getting a job would be nightmare tier still but at least it's better than this meme of making money online. That or I go into shitty stock trading because nobody wants to do that shit.

 

[VioletBlast]

graduation ceremonies I will miss out o

brainwashing to give illusion of status quo. Peers will stab you in the back if you were trapped on a island and had one banana left. Ignore those peasants and stop wanting to seek approval from tools of elites. Do it for yourself overall

 

[Naofumi]

brainwashing to give illusion of status quo. Peers will stab you in the back if you were trapped on a island and had one banana left. Ignore those peasants and stop wanting to seek approval from tools of elites. Do it for yourself overall

I feel like I have no useful skills because I didn't complete a degree i don't know if it's truly a meme or status quo. It's true that my friends weren't the greatest but I felt they were at least strong allies when I had them. For me I dunno anymore, at this rate I'm just going self learning but feel there's no hope to make anything out of it all. Like starting a successful business also looks like hard coping too for a dropout. Maybe you're right i'm putting too much faith in the diplomas

 

[Tabula Rasa]

I am expecting that if I manage to fixup my living space and my mental stabilizes I'll probably head back to a local college within a few months of that and reapply to some faculty at uni but even if I graduate I'll be four years late so I'll delay my grad ceremony as long as possible to avoid the ridicule of old friends who may be in late masters or phd programs. Even still can't decide which faculty I want as I no longer want to program anymore but I still respect cs my old faculty for the power of data structures. I failed so many math courses I can't see myself taking on a math major and arts degrees are meme tier so yeah this is pure speculation but I honestly have no idea what major I would even choose if I even got back into a faculty. After that getting a job would be nightmare tier still but at least it's better than this meme of making money online. That or I go into shitty stock trading because nobody wants to do that shit.

You should get qualifications that are enough for a wagie job that is able to sustain you, assuming that it's not possible to become NEET where you are living.

 

[Naofumi]

You should get qualifications that are enough for a wagie job that is able to sustain you, assuming that it's not possible to become NEET where you are living.

Idk on true wagie jobs they seem like hell. Nursing and stuff and like repainting a house and stuff like fixing furniture seems super boring. If it's the only way though I might have to do it. The goal is sustenance after all. I just can't get over the past where people believed I would be the next jesus christ in middle school.

 

[Tabula Rasa]

Nursing and stuff and like repainting a house and stuff like fixing furniture seems super boring. If it's the only way though I might have to do it.

I mean considering the other options, it's not a bad play tbh. The skills and qualifications required for those jobs are pretty low-level and not too hard.