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Help I used to get bullied by older children around my age (even though I was able to defend myself by punching)...

What's my diagnosis, doc?

  • Neurotypical (blue pill — the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to)

    Votes: 3 50.0%
  • Neurodivergent (take the red pill and go down the rabbit hole)

    Votes: 3 50.0%

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To be honest Asgard if you're not LARPing you strike me as someone in the prodromal stage of Schizophrenia. So maybe just try and monitor your own thoughts.

I have no schizophrenia.
 
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Autism symptoms tend to worsen during puberty due to several androgenic mechanisms relating to the brain, which is why many autistic individuals recall being relatively more capable before adolescence. I can imagine that, if you felt relatively happy during childhood but then your symptoms worsened during adolescence (plausible because pubertal testosterone can exacerbate autistic brain patterns), it may have caused bullying.
I'm sorry but I don't think I have schizophrenia. I have distant relatives with schizophrenia on my father's side, however (the concept of unity is alien in my own family anyways) but I'd like to think half of them are on the autism spectrum since many autistic people could've been misdiagnosed as psychotic or schizophrenic in general during the late 1900s especially. I am lucid enough to differentiate between experiencing hallucinations and reality, plus I'm not suffering from any sort of hallucinations whatsoever other than feeling pretty disillusioned about existence... now, I'll admit I'm tired of existing. I am of no use in this whole human hierarchy, it'd be more productive for me to be dead instead. Going back to the original topic, you could label Schopenhauer a schizophrenic by that metric as well.
 
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To be honest Asgard if you're not LARPing you strike me as someone in the prodromal stage of Schizophrenia. So maybe just try and monitor your own thoughts.

Magical thinking is also loosely attributed to SPD. Someone told me I came up as rather schizoid but I do think I have a mild form of autism (except sensitivities since they tend to be rare, like painful textures).
 
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I'm sorry but I don't think I have schizophrenia. I have distant relatives with schizophrenia on my father's side, however (the concept of unity is alien in my own family anyways) but I'd like to think half of them are on the autism spectrum since many autistic people could've been misdiagnosed as psychotic or schizophrenic in general during the late 1900s especially. I am lucid enough to differentiate between experiencing hallucinations and reality, plus I'm not suffering from any sort of hallucinations whatsoever other than feeling pretty disillusioned about existence... now, I'll admit I'm tired of existing. I am of no use in this whole human hierarchy, it'd be more productive for me to be dead instead. Going back to the original topic, you could label Schopenhauer a schizophrenic by that metric as well.
You don't have to be useful or productive. Most people are not really that useful or productive.
What is causing you disillusionment about this existence?
 
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I can have no women. I am poor. I am STUPID AS FUCK. I am balding like most Homo Sapiens pieces of crap. I fucking hate all of this. But I won't throw myself against a car or a train so a bunch of people end up picking me up piece by piece with trash bags.
 
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And I'm autistic. I'M FUCKING AUTISTIC. DO YOU REALLY THINK I CAN LEARN SOCIAL SKILLS? HOW THE FUCK DO YOU LEARN THEM !?
 
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Defending yourself from bully shithole is pretty high NT trait even if youre autist
So? I was relatively tall compared to my other peers. Most autistic people don't get beaten up here unlike in other shitholes like the US or North Africa where you have to cohabitate with other uncivilized beings who are in tune with their primitive aggressiveness (this is one of the many reasons why I hate this shit species and the animal kingdom in general). I guess poverty really messes up your frontal lobe.

Everything is cyclical, I'm so fed up with this bullshit. I TRULY HOPE, I truly hope my matter doesn't rearrange into something else but I can't expect less coming from this shitshow. I KNOW THIS AIN'T THE FUCKING END.
 
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And I'm autistic. I'M FUCKING AUTISTIC. DO YOU REALLY THINK I CAN LEARN SOCIAL SKILLS? HOW THE FUCK DO YOU LEARN THEM !?

Shot in the dark. Hang out with niggers. They have low IQ but their social skills are advanced. They have some great ways of coping with struggles. Last i checked you didnt even have a problem with them. I think with my challenges in life, going to a few hood schools may have helped me. It may have helped by giving me a softer entrypoint into being capable of social acceptance. Sure they are dangerous and you cant relax but you sound suicidal already so...
 
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Again, how can I like something I've never experienced before? Come on, genius.
I’ve never experienced being a billionaire either but I certainly know I’d like it

Some things are just common sense to know you’d like and crave. Sex is one of those things that you crave even if you’ve never experienced it because it’s in your biology to want it
 
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I’ve never experienced being a billionaire either but I certainly know I’d like it

Some things are just common sense to know you’d like and crave. Sex is one of those things that you crave even if you’ve never experienced it because it’s in your biology to want it
Are you calling me stupid?
 
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because it’s in your biology to want it
Vaginas gross me out, I've inserted my fingers inside my girlfriends' vaginas before and I certainly don't like them (or the flaps around the vulva) nor rubbing my fingers against their clitoris except with the fabric of their briefs. I'd have to do it with my eyes closed if I was forced to do either vaginal or anal sex (I did the latter).
 
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Thankfully I never lowered my gaze to see anyone's anus because that'd be disgusting to say the least. As a matter of fact, I've never seen my own anus, especially out of curiosity.
 
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What does this mean? It id hilarious since all my traits remain in the 'grey zone'. I'm not white but not brown enough. I'm average but not ugly enough (like an Observer from Fringe, invisible to many), I'm not neurotypical but not neurodivergent enough and so on. I feel like a corrupt discarded humanoid robot rotting away in a junkyard.
What fucking retard, not brown enough?! You have glimpses of normal processing abilities then turn into low iq again
 
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What fucking retard, not brown enough?! You have glimpses of normal processing abilities then turn into low iq again
Exactly, I'm not brown enough to be considered POC, but I have a slight olive undertone thankfully (white pigskin = 🤮).

Whenever I walk by a brown majority neighborhood, people can tell me apart and my skin tone doesn't fit in except with North African women (some of them tend to have lighter skin) and North African guys with possibly some Iberian and other percentages of different European admixture.
 
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