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Greetings.
I have been suggested this venerable abode by a since-banned foid, for I have no clue how to find it on my own - the only forums I know are incels.is, and also lookism, but they took 4 months to approve my account, so I lost interest. (Oh, and if you write "tl;dr" - that's the reason I despise incels.is, the poisoning of the blood.)
Who am I? I'm a 25-30 Ukrainian autistic shut-in. My characteristic is that I never talked to anyone in my life aside from my mom and teachers (whenever I had them) - meaning only the people who were contractually obliged to listen to my suifuel 170 Hz voice.
I've never worked a day in my life, my mom cooks for me. Ever since finishing high school, I was just disinterested in life overall as the Nazis lost in 1945 and Soviets in 1991, and I'm too hWite to commit an aliyah to Juche Korea.
Still, I'm not permanently depressed. 2020 and 2022 were in fact fun years. I was eating canned fish because my mom couldn't drive to me. I also got a worthless degree in a local pseudo-uni (I was the only student in the "group" though).
So what is prompting me to write this cyber-message? The years have moved swiftly, and now I'm old (not bald or fat, however). Also, in 2023, an incredibly intelligent, highly accomplished yet sorrowful and terribly crippled and abused JP girl (source?) messaged me, thus giving me a taste of what real-time texting with humans might feel like. (She ghosted me 2 months later, died in 2024, and maybe resurrected in 2025 because of my magic's unbearable cringe, so that's hilarious.)
Where am I standing now?
1, Waiting for nuclear war or AGI singularity to kickstart the extinction of all [non-]Aryans (not gonna happen).
2, Trying to cope with gaming (I'm a fake gamer like everything else, just watch streams, might get boring).
3, The escort option - now that's closer to home! I've finally for the first time ever tried researching whores, and they seem to be fairly affordable? 400 EUR per two hours in Riga/Berlin/Prague? Of course, the question remains - would such a single session per month be sufficient to give me inspiration to earn money and not kill myself?
4, The socialisation option - now this is the whole point of this thread, actually. I have never even been rejected because I have zero fucking clue how even to get to that point. All my life I simply went to school > got perfect grades > went home, whereas others probably fuck? So my question is - where/how/when do I even begin to socialise? To have a shot at being rejected by a female? (To stop sucking, you need to begin.)
Of course, now I cannot go outside because my DNA is apparently white enough to be considered Jewish cattle in the Jewkraine, but maybe the peace deal is gonna be reached, and I would be able to touch grass by the grace of Jesus my slave master UwU (or whatever Jew is responsible for this land). But as you might have guessed, I simply have no idea what touching grass means - in terms of socialisation, I'm an utter corpse.
Again, apologies if this is too useless, or maybe this forum is not for me. My facial characteristic? I've had it evaluated by half a dozen folks so far, they agree on it being average or slightly below, but not hideous. But then again, I've never talked to anyone to see what effect it might have on people IRL.
My voice - yes, holy fuck, proceed at your own caution. No, I don't seem to have hormonal issues, I have plenty of facial hair (unfortunately, hurts to shave), and an alright sexual drive.
vocaroo.com
P.S. The entire year from March to Nov 2024, and then Jan-April 2025 I have spent texting a girl who has agreed to meet me in my apartment, she's 35, and mentally stunted, to a ludicrous degree, completely asexual, talks "peepee in vagvag" literally, doesn't understand orgasm (still had sex ofc). Should I keep pursuing her to meet irl? She has got her sheep confiscated, so that's why she hasn't met me, she's been spending thousands of EUR in court.
I have been suggested this venerable abode by a since-banned foid, for I have no clue how to find it on my own - the only forums I know are incels.is, and also lookism, but they took 4 months to approve my account, so I lost interest. (Oh, and if you write "tl;dr" - that's the reason I despise incels.is, the poisoning of the blood.)
Who am I? I'm a 25-30 Ukrainian autistic shut-in. My characteristic is that I never talked to anyone in my life aside from my mom and teachers (whenever I had them) - meaning only the people who were contractually obliged to listen to my suifuel 170 Hz voice.
I've never worked a day in my life, my mom cooks for me. Ever since finishing high school, I was just disinterested in life overall as the Nazis lost in 1945 and Soviets in 1991, and I'm too hWite to commit an aliyah to Juche Korea.
Still, I'm not permanently depressed. 2020 and 2022 were in fact fun years. I was eating canned fish because my mom couldn't drive to me. I also got a worthless degree in a local pseudo-uni (I was the only student in the "group" though).
So what is prompting me to write this cyber-message? The years have moved swiftly, and now I'm old (not bald or fat, however). Also, in 2023, an incredibly intelligent, highly accomplished yet sorrowful and terribly crippled and abused JP girl (source?) messaged me, thus giving me a taste of what real-time texting with humans might feel like. (She ghosted me 2 months later, died in 2024, and maybe resurrected in 2025 because of my magic's unbearable cringe, so that's hilarious.)
Where am I standing now?
1, Waiting for nuclear war or AGI singularity to kickstart the extinction of all [non-]Aryans (not gonna happen).
2, Trying to cope with gaming (I'm a fake gamer like everything else, just watch streams, might get boring).
3, The escort option - now that's closer to home! I've finally for the first time ever tried researching whores, and they seem to be fairly affordable? 400 EUR per two hours in Riga/Berlin/Prague? Of course, the question remains - would such a single session per month be sufficient to give me inspiration to earn money and not kill myself?
4, The socialisation option - now this is the whole point of this thread, actually. I have never even been rejected because I have zero fucking clue how even to get to that point. All my life I simply went to school > got perfect grades > went home, whereas others probably fuck? So my question is - where/how/when do I even begin to socialise? To have a shot at being rejected by a female? (To stop sucking, you need to begin.)
Of course, now I cannot go outside because my DNA is apparently white enough to be considered Jewish cattle in the Jewkraine, but maybe the peace deal is gonna be reached, and I would be able to touch grass by the grace of Jesus my slave master UwU (or whatever Jew is responsible for this land). But as you might have guessed, I simply have no idea what touching grass means - in terms of socialisation, I'm an utter corpse.
Again, apologies if this is too useless, or maybe this forum is not for me. My facial characteristic? I've had it evaluated by half a dozen folks so far, they agree on it being average or slightly below, but not hideous. But then again, I've never talked to anyone to see what effect it might have on people IRL.
My voice - yes, holy fuck, proceed at your own caution. No, I don't seem to have hormonal issues, I have plenty of facial hair (unfortunately, hurts to shave), and an alright sexual drive.
Vocaroo | Online voice recorder
Vocaroo is a quick and easy way to share voice messages over the interwebs.
vocaroo.com
P.S. The entire year from March to Nov 2024, and then Jan-April 2025 I have spent texting a girl who has agreed to meet me in my apartment, she's 35, and mentally stunted, to a ludicrous degree, completely asexual, talks "peepee in vagvag" literally, doesn't understand orgasm (still had sex ofc). Should I keep pursuing her to meet irl? She has got her sheep confiscated, so that's why she hasn't met me, she's been spending thousands of EUR in court.
