Lifestyle Lifestyle? I will Explain my lifestyle I guess.

[sb23]

Bruh like I honestly inject nearly a gram of steroids, 500 test and a random amount of masteron, I dont even look when I draw the syringe so it's relatively random. Ive been taking letrzole since 17 and one month (almost non stop). I take so many of these drugs and dont even go to the gym. You know why? Because every time I try to get my fucking life together I get sick. I was on a perfect run, going to the gym, I gained 14 kg of muscle naturally despite my autoimmune condition. I get sick and start loosing insane amounts of weight very quickly. I went from 68kg all the way back down to 54 in 2 months. I had a severe loss of appetite and would sometimes eat nothing all day. I just felt full all the time, I was never hungry. You know what my 'doctors' did? They gave me a fucking psychologist. I told them I had no appetite and they told me to do fucking breathing exercises. breathing exercises. This was my doctors solution. After that I bought steroids and appetite stimulants. I went about it as safely as possible, making sure I mitigated all potential side effects to the best of my ability. This steroids did nothing for me. Ive gained back 6 kg in 5 weeks of taking this shit. These hormones also completely ruined my sleep. I justt stopped sleeping. I stayed up till six in the morning playing incel craft with @ilovewhitepill. I played it every day, my screen time was 11 hours. Thats all I did for like a month or 2. I felt so tired and dint go gym. The drugs did nothing to make me hungrier. The mk-677 made me hungry for like 1 hour and then im back to baseline. Once I was at the mc stage is when I stopped caring about my health completely. Thats when I started injecting random dosages of masteron and stopped taking all my anchiliers. This past week I tried to get this shit back together and tried to start studying. Guess what fucking happens. I get sick for no reason. I still persisted through and went back to the gym for the first time in 2 months. 5kg dumbbell curl for 8 was the max I could do. Even when I started the gym natural at a smaller weight, I was able to do 7.5kg. Im extremely weak for some reason. I will start tren soon seriously. I have given up caring about my health. Ugly people are unlucky and unlucky people die in unlucky ways. I will probably die from something stupid like lung cancer despite never smoking so why should I care about my health. I was stupid for caring in the first place.

 

[sb23]

Ignore my incoherent schizo ramblings actually

 

[ilovewhitepill]

Bro ngl when i was playing mc with you my appetite has also been shit but that’s because i was vaping at the same time which i gotta stop

 

[sb23]

Bro ngl when i was playing mc with you my appetite has also been shit but that’s because i was vaping at the same time which i gotta stop

I tried not playing today to see if the anxiety from being in a simulation of a more intense reality would allow me to eat more about but absolutely zero despite taking an actual appetite stimulant. There's something wrong with me but my doctors will never do anything. I am seriously a twink.

 

[ilovewhitepill]

I tried not playing today to see if the anxiety from being in a simulation of a more intense reality would allow me to eat more about but absolutely zero despite taking an actual appetite stimulant. There's something wrong with me but my doctors will never do anything. I am seriously a twink.

I gained like half a kg this month im 82kg but I really gotta stop vaping cause without nicotine my appetite is huge ive always been a big eater

 

[sb23]

I gained like half a kg this month im 82kg but I really gotta stop vaping cause without nicotine my appetite is huge ive always been a big eater

What weight did you start gym at?

 

[ilovewhitepill]

What weight did you start gym at?

80kg something at 13 but took it seriously last year at 67.5kg i was really skinny and my dad said i looked small and not well. And I never want to be anorexic i was pretty close too it

 

[sb23]

80kg something at 13 but took it seriously last year at 67.5kg i was really skinny and my dad said i looked small and not well. And I never want to be anorexic i was pretty close too it

Ive always wanted to be bigger. Always been made fun off for how skinny I was. I thought steroids would at least help. They did nothing. They aren't even bunk because im getting all the fucking side effects. Just my fucking luck. Im legit taking tren now. I g onna buy some soon god hates me if he exists. Why the fuck would he make me like this?

 

[ilovewhitepill]

Ive always wanted to be bigger. Always been made fun off for how skinny I was. I thought steroids would at least help. They did nothing. They aren't even bunk because im getting all the fucking side effects. Just my fucking luck. Im legit taking tren now. I g onna buy some soon god hates me if he exists. Why the fuck would he make me like this?

I feel really sorry for you bro. Tren is an insane jump, some people just don’t react well to substances and it’s a harder journey than if you were natty even,

Im planning on taking sarms soon and i know they will do enough for me even tho there much weaker than roids

 

[sb23]

I feel really sorry for you bro. Tren is an insane jump, some people just don’t react well to substances and it’s a harder journey than if you were natty even,

Im planning on taking sarms soon and i know they will do enough for me even tho there much weaker than roids

The things is, I trained insanely hard, to the point were even after stopping the gym for several months, I still had heart palpitations. I legit ate until I threw up. I did this natural, all for me to loose it in 2 fucking months. The steroids aren't even helping. Im unhealthy weak. Little children half my height in the gym were able to lift far more weight than me. The best way to describe how this feels is like when you've just woken up and you cant firmly clench your first. I feel like that in the gym despite nearly a gram of steroids.

 

[sb23]

The things is, I trained insanely hard, to the point were even after stopping the gym for several months, I still had heart palpitations. I legit ate until I threw up. I did this natural, all for me to loose it in 2 fucking months. The steroids aren't even helping. Im unhealthy weak. Little children half my height in the gym were able to lift far more weight than me. The best way to describe how this feels is like when you've just woken up and you cant firmly clench your first. I feel like that in the gym despite nearly a gram of steroids.

@ilovewhitepill what am I saying, half a gram of test and like 300 mas, not really half a gram lol.

 

[ilovewhitepill]

The things is, I trained insanely hard, to the point were even after stopping the gym for several months, I still had heart palpitations. I legit ate until I threw up. I did this natural, all for me to loose it in 2 fucking months. The steroids aren't even helping. Im unhealthy weak. Little children half my height in the gym were able to lift far more weight than me. The best way to describe how this feels is like when you've just woken up and you cant firmly clench your first. I feel like that in the gym despite nearly a gram of steroids.

That’s why redpill is bs for a lot of people.

Just go gym bro
Just make money bro

It’s out of some people’s control most of the time

 

[sb23]

That’s why redpill is bs for a lot of people.

Just go gym bro
Just make money bro

It’s out of some people’s control most of the time

I'll be honest, I will tell you a funny story which is the reason behind why I want to get big. This is pretty much the only reason other than better bidelt. A group of people I called my 'friends' chose to pick on me severely and there was nothing I could do. It was 6 of them all against me and I was always a slow runner. They humiliated me and recorded me. They made me get on my knees and called me a good bitch and insulted me. They started punching me in the body. They made me walk like a dog on the floor. I was such a pussy. I was taller than most of them but I couldn't do anything. Some of the people in the group were known for being really violent and at the time I was scared of taking a beating (now of course I just would). They forced me to throw up gang signs on camera and threatened to share the vid of me doing it. if I was bigger I could have at least put up a fight. I wish I could kill all those niggers. I wish I could see one of them in person 1 on 1 but I probably never will because they are always in groups. Dont laugh at me to much. keep this on the down low. I need to get big so that this doesnt happen again though. I will also get leg lengthening or I will kill myself.

 

[ilovewhitepill]

I'll be honest, I will tell you a funny story which is the reason behind why I want to get big. This is pretty much the only reason other than better bidelt. A group of people I called my 'friends' chose to pick on me severely and there was nothing I could do. It was 6 of them all against me and I was always a slow runner. They humiliated me and recorded me. They made me get on my knees and called me a good bitch and insulted me. They started punching me in the body. They made me walk like a dog on the floor. I was such a pussy. I was taller than most of them but I couldn't do anything. Some of the people in the group were known for being really violent and at the time I was scared of taking a beating (now of course I just would). They forced me to throw up gang signs on camera and threatened to share the vid of me doing it. if I was bigger I could have at least put up a fight. I wish I could kill all those niggers. I wish I could see one of them in person 1 on 1 but I probably never will because they are always in groups. Dont laugh at me to much. keep this on the down low. I need to get big so that this doesnt happen again though. I will also get leg lengthening or I will kill myself.

Same here with me i was picked on for being fat ugly autistic and short