LOL Reading my old looksmax.org posts got me like:

[jayjay]

@Apollo This is the shit that happens to a man when he hasn't integrated his anima. It is so interesting to see how neurotic I was the previous year man... Damn, psychoanalysis and connecting with my emotions has paid off a lot.

 

[jayjay]

I jestermaxx a lot, so I will create a new personality. Any advice?

I will create a new personality. I need to use a social mask because not using one is fucking me a lot. I don't want to reveal my true nature so that the normies can take advantage of me. It is good to jestermaxx indeed, it helps me to laugh at the pain and the absurdity of life, but there are...

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I have literally became the man I dreamed to be, personality wise.

There was just too much accumulated trauma in my system.

 

[jayjay]

I am a delusional sigma male with plans of conquering the world.

Mastery over yourself means mastery over the world. Everything you want to inflict on the world, you have to inflict it on yourself. Meditation, studying, feeling, art, chess, reading and educating myself about everything there has to be learned; all instruments to push my brain to further...

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When I was psychotic:

 

[jayjay]

The keys to being an ÜBERMENSCH. MENTAL-MAXXING TO STOP SUFFERING.

If only you knew guys... Every day I really confirm fear, grief, and shame as nothing more than mental psychological constructs to protect us from the pain.... But by giving myself and my body, mind, and soul to the pain, the fear, the grief, and the shame—any of those not pleasurable...

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[jayjay]

Never, absolutely never repress your emotions.

You will only make yourself go sick. Take it all out. Write insults, make it art; paint it, draw it, write it, whatever shit you consider an art, but never fucking never repress your emotions. FEEL YOUR EMOTIONS FOR THEY ARE THE POWER. FEEL THE RAGE, FEEL THE FEAR, FEEL THE SHAME, FEEL...

looksmax.org

 

[jayjay]

 

[Ultimate Subhuman]

Brutal Ban

 

[jayjay]

Brutal Ban

I asked for it.

 

[Apollo]

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@Apollo This is the shit that happens to a man when he hasn't integrated his anima. It is so interesting to see how neurotic I was the previous year man... Damn, psychoanalysis and connecting with my emotions has paid off a lot.

must say, finding your anima really works to understand who you want to be — and who you already are. It’s pretty much a hidden key. For me, it was goth girls, simply because they carry a loner vibe: a Western-style presence in a Latin emotional environment. That aligned perfectly with the creation of my post-metal operator style — meaning it’s an upgrade, not just being a “rock” guy anymore — and with seeing detective, military, and intelligence work as my new default.
It’s not just a phase, but an actual identity. Then *goths* are simply a superficial pathethic style, also rock genre itself.