Venting Why am I so retarded?

[Tomoko4r3al]

Every day I wake up and look in the mirror and hate the way I am. I shower and look down at the body I have to call my own and I hate it. I brush my teeth and dress myself and try to make my hair look good but I never feel like it’s good enough. I never feel fully presentable. Finally I give up and drive to school. I walk through the hallways and I feel like every single person is staring at me–judging me. I look down and try to keep to myself, but I can never escape them. I feel their burning gaze on me. I go to my friend and try to say something to spark a conversation, but whatever stupid shit I decide to say never sounds right, and all they do is laugh. The entire day I try to talk to people but I never feel like I can say the right thing. Other people seem to have such free conversations (especially with women), but for me, everything takes an extreme amount of effort. I spend so much time planning exactly what I’m going to say, but I always end up fucking it up and sounding like an autist. I go home and my family tries to talk to me, but all I do is nod my head and respond with passing remarks because my life is too uninteresting for conversation. As soon as I finally make it home, all I do is lie in my bed and wait for another day to pass me by. When does it end? Why am I so retarded?

 

[methos]

this entire paragraph screams autist to be honest but thats not a horribly bad thing

it ends when you let it but until then good luck

 

[PoopyPigeon]

this entire paragraph screams autist to be honest but thats not a horribly bad thing

it ends when you let it but until then good luck

I don't see a thing which doesn't scream autist for internet psychiatrists like you.

 

[methos]

I don't see a thing which doesn't scream autist for internet psychiatrists like you.

true lol

 

[Foidkiller]

Every day I wake up and look in the mirror and hate the way I am. I shower and look down at the body I have to call my own and I hate it. I brush my teeth and dress myself and try to make my hair look good but I never feel like it’s good enough. I never feel fully presentable. Finally I give up and drive to school. I walk through the hallways and I feel like every single person is staring at me–judging me. I look down and try to keep to myself, but I can never escape them. I feel their burning gaze on me. I go to my friend and try to say something to spark a conversation, but whatever stupid shit I decide to say never sounds right, and all they do is laugh. The entire day I try to talk to people but I never feel like I can say the right thing. Other people seem to have such free conversations (especially with women), but for me, everything takes an extreme amount of effort. I spend so much time planning exactly what I’m going to say, but I always end up fucking it up and sounding like an autist. I go home and my family tries to talk to me, but all I do is nod my head and respond with passing remarks because my life is too uninteresting for conversation. As soon as I finally make it home, all I do is lie in my bed and wait for another day to pass me by. When does it end? Why am I so retarded?

Young?

 

[Tomoko4r3al]

Young?

Yeah, I’m just about to finish high school, and I head to college very soon. College is probably going to be way worse.

 

[Foidkiller]

Yeah, I’m just about to finish high school, and I head to college very soon. College is probably going to be way worse.

College is a scam. But either way not as much is expected of you if you are young. Simply because what if a car crashes into you tomorrow for example. That means that you are not really expected to have all your future plans down yet.

 

[cosmicx16]

Welcome to the club

 

[cosmicx16]

Yeah, I’m just about to finish high school, and I head to college very soon. College is probably going to be way worse.

playplace.se

 

[Tomoko4r3al]

College is a scam. But either way not as much is expected of you if you are young. Simply because what if a car crashes into you tomorrow for example. That means that you are not really expected to have all your future plans down yet.

I have to go to college because I plan on becoming a mechanical engineer. My IQ is one of my few redeeming qualities, why would I waste it by not going to college? But yes, I agree that college is a scam for most goys.

 

[Memento Mori]

You're not retarded, you're just not socially well-integrated. Relatable because I wasn't part of the in-group in my teen years and at the bottom of the social pecking order. Young people are psychopathic.

 

[Foidkiller]

I have to go to college because I plan on becoming a mechanical engineer. My IQ is one of my few redeeming qualities, why would I waste it by not going to college? But yes, I agree that college is a scam for most goys.

There are different types of intelligence, sure, if you're good for mechanical engineering, do it, anyway in an ideal world there would be some private form of training and certification, rather than colleges.

 

[lunin7]

Every day I wake up and look in the mirror and hate the way I am. I shower and look down at the body I have to call my own and I hate it. I brush my teeth and dress myself and try to make my hair look good but I never feel like it’s good enough. I never feel fully presentable. Finally I give up and drive to school. I walk through the hallways and I feel like every single person is staring at me–judging me. I look down and try to keep to myself, but I can never escape them. I feel their burning gaze on me. I go to my friend and try to say something to spark a conversation, but whatever stupid shit I decide to say never sounds right, and all they do is laugh. The entire day I try to talk to people but I never feel like I can say the right thing. Other people seem to have such free conversations (especially with women), but for me, everything takes an extreme amount of effort. I spend so much time planning exactly what I’m going to say, but I always end up fucking it up and sounding like an autist. I go home and my family tries to talk to me, but all I do is nod my head and respond with passing remarks because my life is too uninteresting for conversation. As soon as I finally make it home, all I do is lie in my bed and wait for another day to pass me by. When does it end? Why am I so retarded?

I’m autistic its the primary reason I’m here can’t wait to bank on social security bux !!