Why do you want to die, are you miserable?
Whatever causes misery is biochemical in root and maybe you should try removing that first (with antidepressants being the last and least optimal "fix", because they generally make things worse).
Exercise + Sun and natural light exposure + eliminanting goyslop contaminating your organism (you're fat) + taking vitamins. Perhaps, staying the fuck away from h*mans if social situations bother you.
Would not answer if you weren't 40. Not a start of conversation either, just musing if I were planning to hang and posted on EF about it.
