It’s impossible to go back

[cosmicx16]

After hiding away for so long, and spending time warming up to the feeling by living in bugland, I thought I could toughen myself up to function like how I did before the last year, before when I was still under the impression that I was human, that other people perceived me as human. It doesn’t work, nothing changes, as soon as I take a single step out of that door, as soon as I can perceive others and how they differ from me in every single way, how thousands upon thousands of processes are taking my disgusting existence in as stimuli, it gets too much, I could barely manage to walk on a sidewalk without keeping my eyes looking at the other side of the road and my hand raised to my face as if to scratch it, to at least obscure my features
There is no statement or change in reality that could fix this, I will be mentally raped by the probability that a single human being might have caught a glimpse of my face at any instant in time, and I will stay raped forever. It’s over, I don’t know how I will live, how I will deal with my faggot parents once they slowly accept that their son cannot function like a naturally healthy mammalian, my needs are now limited to survival within only the most cruel, artificial haven of a home. Four walls and a window to keep me from all of them.

No, it’s to keep them from seeing me. Fuck

 

[Schwarzwald]

After hiding away for so long, and spending time warming up to the feeling by living in bugland, I thought I could toughen myself up to function like how I did before the last year, before when I was still under the impression that I was human, that other people perceived me as human. It doesn’t work, nothing changes, as soon as I take a single step out of that door, as soon as I can perceive others and how they differ from me in every single way, how thousands upon thousands of processes are taking my disgusting existence in as stimuli, it gets too much, I could barely manage to walk on a sidewalk without keeping my eyes looking at the other side of the road and my hand raised to my face as if to scratch it, to at least obscure my features
There is no statement or change in reality that could fix this, I will be mentally raped by the probability that a single human being might have caught a glimpse of my face at any instant in time, and I will stay raped forever. It’s over, I don’t know how I will live, how I will deal with my faggot parents once they slowly accept that their son cannot function like a naturally healthy mammalian, my needs are now limited to survival within only the most cruel, artificial haven of a home. Four walls and a window to keep me from all of them.

No, it’s to keep them from seeing me. Fuck

I don't mean to sound rude or dense, this isn't a looks issue right your talking about the phycological pain of being seen and judged right? The unknown of it? Or it there more or less? Is this like a no longer human statement? Wanna talk it out?

 

[cosmicx16]

I don't mean to sound rude or dense, this isn't a looks issue right your talking about the phycological pain of being seen and judged right? The unknown of it? Or it there more or less? Is this like a no longer human statement? Wanna talk it out?

Everything is a looks issue. Being born as me was the issue. The issue now is that

 

[Schwarzwald]

Everything is a looks issue. Being born as me was the issue. The issue now is that

No no not fuck it let's talk it out man.

I guenually don't think it can possibly be that bad. I'm serious, we can chat it out over discord if you want, it can't be that bad :(

 

[cosmicx16]

There is no sympathy for abused niggers who have to experience this stage of accepting it as a cemented aspect of life. The ones who dealt with it in the past have either got the balls to escape, or had long ago shed any emotions surrounding their past abuse and can no longer feel sympathy for the newgens who squeal like fags about it just as they had done before. You can’t relate to normies who were supposed to be mindraped but were goodlifers no matter how hard you try. The crumbs of delusion that helped them blindly stumble into a slave position within the winner’s world are all just miles of distance that heighten their distinction to you, a cuck flung by opposite impetus, who was torn down by every crack in your vision to indicate any inconsistency in what meager upwards journey you were trying to prevail within. Fighting yourself, everyone else, everyone like you, and on the other side are those who never even had a self to tear at in the first place. You can cope by saying that makes you superior to them, it’s irrelevant personal preference. This and thats at the bottom of a very deep dark hole

 

[Schwarzwald]

There is no sympathy for abused niggers who have to experience this stage of accepting it as a cemented aspect of life. The ones who dealt with it in the past have either got the balls to escape, or had long ago shed any emotions surrounding their past abuse and can no longer feel sympathy for the newgens who squeal like fags about it just as they had done before. You can’t relate to normies who were supposed to be mindraped but were goodlifers no matter how hard you try. The crumbs of delusion that helped them blindly stumble into a slave position within the winner’s world are all just miles of distance that heighten their distinction to you, a cuck flung by opposite impetus, who was torn down by every crack in your vision to indicate any inconsistency in what meager upwards journey you were trying to prevail within. Fighting yourself, everyone else, everyone like you, and on the other side are those who never even had a self to tear at in the first place. You can cope by saying that makes you superior to them, it’s irrelevant personal preference. This and thats at the bottom of a very deep dark hole

There is no sympathy for abused niggers who have to experience this stage of accepting it as a cemented aspect of life. The ones who dealt with it in the past have either got the balls to escape, or had long ago shed any emotions surrounding their past abuse and can no longer feel sympathy for the newgens who squeal like fags about it just as they had done before. You can’t relate to normies who were supposed to be mindraped but were goodlifers no matter how hard you try. The crumbs of delusion that helped them blindly stumble into a slave position within the winner’s world are all just miles of distance that heighten their distinction to you, a cuck flung by opposite impetus, who was torn down by every crack in your vision to indicate any inconsistency in what meager upwards journey you were trying to prevail within. Fighting yourself, everyone else, everyone like you, and on the other side are those who never even had a self to tear at in the first place. You can cope by saying that makes you superior to them, it’s irrelevant personal preference. This and thats at the bottom of a very deep dark hole

Have you been drinking tonight?

 

[Schwarzwald]

I ask it only in terms because of the juxtaposition of your first post to this 2nd one.

 

[newsincerity]

After hiding away for so long, and spending time warming up to the feeling by living in bugland, I thought I could toughen myself up to function like how I did before the last year, before when I was still under the impression that I was human, that other people perceived me as human. It doesn’t work, nothing changes, as soon as I take a single step out of that door, as soon as I can perceive others and how they differ from me in every single way, how thousands upon thousands of processes are taking my disgusting existence in as stimuli, it gets too much, I could barely manage to walk on a sidewalk without keeping my eyes looking at the other side of the road and my hand raised to my face as if to scratch it, to at least obscure my features
There is no statement or change in reality that could fix this, I will be mentally raped by the probability that a single human being might have caught a glimpse of my face at any instant in time, and I will stay raped forever. It’s over, I don’t know how I will live, how I will deal with my faggot parents once they slowly accept that their son cannot function like a naturally healthy mammalian, my needs are now limited to survival within only the most cruel, artificial haven of a home. Four walls and a window to keep me from all of them.

No, it’s to keep them from seeing me. Fuck

There is no sympathy for abused niggers who have to experience this stage of accepting it as a cemented aspect of life. The ones who dealt with it in the past have either got the balls to escape, or had long ago shed any emotions surrounding their past abuse and can no longer feel sympathy for the newgens who squeal like fags about it just as they had done before. You can’t relate to normies who were supposed to be mindraped but were goodlifers no matter how hard you try. The crumbs of delusion that helped them blindly stumble into a slave position within the winner’s world are all just miles of distance that heighten their distinction to you, a cuck flung by opposite impetus, who was torn down by every crack in your vision to indicate any inconsistency in what meager upwards journey you were trying to prevail within. Fighting yourself, everyone else, everyone like you, and on the other side are those who never even had a self to tear at in the first place. You can cope by saying that makes you superior to them, it’s irrelevant personal preference. This and thats at the bottom of a very deep dark hole

Mirin articulating my problem perfectly
drugs and getting pussy are the only things known to men that help with this shit

Are you better in China?

 

[porco-dddio]

seems like youre having a bad incelday. Do you have hobby or copes, if not did you consider drawing and doing comics?

 

[newsincerity]

seems like youre having a bad incelday. Do you have hobby or copes, if not did you consider drawing and doing comics?

how do women tolerate your lack of EQ

 

[porco-dddio]

how do women tolerate your lack of EQ

Im EQ maxed. I got incredibly highEQ.

No worry I fix your life. I use one of my miracles

 

[Ishmael]

There is no sympathy for abused niggers who have to experience this stage of accepting it as a cemented aspect of life. The ones who dealt with it in the past have either got the balls to escape, or had long ago shed any emotions surrounding their past abuse and can no longer feel sympathy for the newgens who squeal like fags about it just as they had done before. You can’t relate to normies who were supposed to be mindraped but were goodlifers no matter how hard you try. The crumbs of delusion that helped them blindly stumble into a slave position within the winner’s world are all just miles of distance that heighten their distinction to you, a cuck flung by opposite impetus, who was torn down by every crack in your vision to indicate any inconsistency in what meager upwards journey you were trying to prevail within. Fighting yourself, everyone else, everyone like you, and on the other side are those who never even had a self to tear at in the first place. You can cope by saying that makes you superior to them, it’s irrelevant personal preference. This and thats at the bottom of a very deep dark hole

I haven't seen many other people articulate the way that I've felt in the past about my issues and my disconnect from generalized society. I hated everyone because everyone was retarded. And they get off scot free with so much because they are. They get to live in blissful ignorance of so many things and can just shut their brains off. There's a lot of those thoughts that still come about from time to time, but it is possible to overcome the emotions there and turn it into something better; but it does require a death of sorts. I pray you feel better and that your self image can be restored.

 

[Depresso]

Everything is a looks issue. Being born as me was the issue. The issue now is that

Most normies get away with being completely ignorant to all but the obvious looks issues. You might need to see a mental health profesional.

This guy doesn't feel anything.

 

[Apollo Tenzen]

Most normies get away with being completely ignorant to all but the obvious looks issues. You might need to see a mental health profesional.

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This guy doesn't feel anything.

An 18y btw

 

[porco-dddio]

I haven't seen many other people articulate the way that I've felt in the past about my issues and my disconnect from generalized society. I hated everyone because everyone was retarded. And they get off scot free with so much because they are. They get to live in blissful ignorance of so many things and can just shut their brains off. There's a lot of those thoughts that still come about from time to time, but it is possible to overcome the emotions there and turn it into something better; but it does require a death of sorts. I pray you feel better and that your self image can be restored.

Personally. Bein incel made me uninterested in the things I valued when I was young. For example I really liked cars, so I was already planning to get a nissan after I watched fast and furious. I already crashed a panda in preparation. And I was impatient so I got a tuning punto.

then i became incel and I lost interest in all these things.

In any case, if you cope is good. I recommend drawing because is cheap but I also do wood skulpt

 

[Depresso]

An 18y btw

What do you mean?

 

[Schwarzwald]

Personally. Bein incel made me uninterested in the things I valued when I was young. For example I really liked cars, so I was already planning to get a nissan after I watched fast and furious. I already crashed a panda in preparation. And I was impatient so I got a tuning punto.

then i became incel and I lost interest in all these things.

In any case, if you cope is good. I recommend drawing because is cheap but I also do wood skulpt

Wait when you became an incel? I get confused on your lore my guy, arnt you grand pooba?