Philosophical question: If you were your own father...

[Schwarzwald]

If Q from Star Trek just snapped his fingers and dropped you into quantum superposition right now, not for trying to leave the star system, but because the Continuum looked at your life and went:

“yeah this motherfucker wants to be a dad? Lol. No.”

You wake up as a kid again. Same mom. Same house. Same shitty childhood memories. Except now you are your own father.

Not some time travel clone bullshit. Not your grandpa. You. The full grown you, standing there in dad jeans, knowing every stupid decision you’ve ever made, every weakness, every time you chose the easy path.

And the kid version of you is staring up at this new “dad” who is also you, not knowing shit.

You don’t get the luxury of your old temporal brain.

You’re in 4D/5D now.

You know exactly what that little boy wants and needs... because you were him. And you also know exactly how much of a flawed, distracted, half assed father the adult you would actually be.

So tell me, gentlemen...

are you happy with your father?

Is he getting down on the floor and playing with you, or is he on his phone doomscrolling Pepes and Wu-Tang braids while the kid version of you just wants someone to throw the fucking ball?

Is he patient when you’re being an annoying little shit (which you definitely were)?

Or does he snap the way you know you would?

You’re fucking your own mom in this scenario too, by the way. Deal with that later, Oedipus.

The real horror isn’t the time fuckery.

It’s the mirror.

You are simultaneously the disappointed child and the disappointing father.

The question isn’t “would you be a good dad?”

The question is: looking your younger self in the eyes, are you even proud of the man you became?

Well?

 

[Schwarzwald]

Can you be honest with us even?

Let alone yourself?

 

[Schwarzwald]

Or do you start beating your wife/mother instantly and drop the child you the most brutal of red and black pills???

 

[Schwarzwald]

Personal?

I hated my mother when I found out the truth about my mother and my biological father and his death.

That's one aspect

I let it go because there isn't any point in crying over the dead like that.

 

[Schwarzwald]

But would I be happy with my father if he was me?

I would be confused why Dad seemed so happy when it is just me and him but he's so angry when he's around other people...

Why do I get the smiling daddy.

And everyone gets angry crunched up face dad.

Why does dads face become a quiet lake of feeling around Mom and her family...

Why did Dad have kids with another woman...

How can Dad be so silly and then so cold and stern...